Break the Hiatus...Tatoos and Piercing

Have you ever noticed how much technology is taking over! Our old roommate did nothing but stay on her phone 24/7. I mean literally Woke up phone in hand and went to sleep with it in her hand. She was even ignoring her son for this phone. Which should I mention wasn't even a smartphone. So yeah... It was really annoying because thats all she would do. Yeah I text but only when its David but mostly I text at night! It's something that has become a habit. When company is over I virtually put my phone away. Its just something that back in the day ..it was just you and the people you were with. Now we have Facebook, Pintrest, Twitter, Blogger and so much more. We are connected to the internet. Which can be one of those good things or drama filled hornet nests. But ...in other news...

This has been my first week back from my Moving/Exercise Hiatus...

I am Exercising during the day when its just my kids. Then I usually have Gavin or Chase or Both past 3pm. It gets kind of crazy with 4 kids. They all get along with a plus. Lack of sleep is one of those main things. For the kids not me. Goals so far. Lose 14 more pounds and I will be up to 43 pounds lost. I will be getting my snake bits! Whoo! Then when I am 15 more pounds I will be getting a tattoo with GIR from Invander Zim eating a cup cake (waffles) with No Excuses under it.

Piercing and Tattoos are huge motivations for me. I am sore but it is so so so worth it. Already lost 30 now just to get the rest. :) The adventure of soreness, pure sweat and blood !

Who I am. Part 1

I have been thinking lately about who I am ....Its a funny little thing...

I am a girl that likes to push mow or looooove riding lawnmowers. I figure push mowing is exercise and I love me some exercise. Riding lawnmowers are just plain fun to drive. Plus having 5 acres makes it crazy good.

I love fishing and now I have a pond with huge Channel Catfish. I also know how to take care of my beautiful pond. Adore to go swimming.

I am a girl that loves to spend hours painting and drawing and once I get started I get in my zone. Perfection kicks in.

Music is a huge part of my life. I always have music on. When I am upset it keeps me stay san. I usually have my phone music on all the time. I have songs for every mood and of every genre/lyrical. Old, Classic, New Age whatever the mood. I am never bored. My favorite Female Artist Arethra Franklin, Group of old Temptations, New Maroon 5, Blue October, and Secondhand Serenade. Man: Blake Shelton. Variety.

I love doing things by myself. I do not like asking for help. Even if that means I lift something heaavy. I think it is all because of David working all day or maybe how independent I am.

I absolutely loooooooove Rose Gardens. I have already five rose plants because I can. David told me I could expanse every year how crazy would that be. I love the hard work and time involved. Its not just plant them in the ground and they grow. You have to nurture them.

Love to Exercise. It is one of those things that is my escape. Which for me is a huge deal.

I tend not to trust others unless they are my friend for a long time. I judge on actions better than words. Once someone breaks my trust I tend to not forgive them. Unless it is something petty or somebody makes up for their actions. Its one of those Aquarius things. But being my friend I will give you all my trust and will be a great listener. My friends all have different personalities. None of them actually talk to each other unless they are with me. I love all of their faults and their personalities. I have three very close guy friends. Which I have always got along with guys over girls. For most girls its emotion emotion, and revenge. With Guys they will tell you how it is. My three guy friends I adore, Two are Soul Mates and one is my friend I can talk to about anything. By Soul Mate means they are part of my soul. I love all three of them with all my heart. Its complicated with one of them but friendships are full of them. Plus one of them are Davids friend who stood by us. Revenge is stupid.

My kids mean the world to me. They are before anyone and anything. They are probably the spoiled-ish kids w ith boundaries. They are independent and do not like to be treated like babies. They stay with me in whatever I do whether it be outside or inside. I love being a stay at home mom. It is hard at times....but I get to see them grow up.

Animals are a huge part of my life. Without them I would be lost. Cats tend to follow me home...without my help. Dogs love to follow me and protect me. Birds sing to me. I love my animals. They will give you the kind of love that no other human being cannot and they will never tell your secrets. And they always listen.

I am really shy...but I love attention. In a room of people I do not know ..my personality will spike. Specially with Guys, specially drunk I am a lush for sure...but Faithful. I love to dress scene/emo. I may be a mom but I love my hair being the color of my mood. Red, Purple, BLue, Blood Red, Blonde, black....tons of color combinations. I am not vain but at the same time I love to look nice...I love attention..It is a curse. I don't think of myself as pretty but then I get hit on all the time. My friends remind me everyday of how good I look maybe I will listen someday.. Its one of those I am not where I want to be so yeah.

My husband is my rock! He understood my mistakes and I have forgave his mistakes. I love him with all my heart. He gave me a life that I deserve and He deserves. Living in a trailer (as nice as it was) is not fun for 4 years.Then to go to where we live. Ahh...He is something we can talk about absolutely nothing and laugh. We both like to help people. We are so much alike. He doesn't like the fact I got my lip pierced..or the tattoo I am getting but he will survive :)

Except I have a horrid temper...but I always say...I have a tendency to be mean, but just don't piss me off and you won't have to see that side of me. Simple as That.

Mirror Mirror on the Walll......Jealous. Time to go work outside. Enjoying this lushes weather!

I misssses you

So I never realized how much I missed Exercising. I haven't really Exercised in over a month. I started up 10 minute trainer (Which is really 30 min.) Beachbody so you know it is good. Of all the Bookshelf work I did, my calves were instantly screaming at me, and so was my pelvis. Something is wrong with my pelvis...I just don't want to hear bad things from the doctor. My ob told me with the 5 seconds of hard labor I had, 1 push I would probably have pains....Yeah Pains. It can either be the separation of the bone or...a nerve stuck....oh joy I will just avoid side crunches and side planks. No excuses. I worked through it Cardio-10min Lower-10 Abs- 10 and then Running on the treadmill 10 minutes of running. Cannot wait to hit another goal :) Time to finish my creepy room and some laundry..ooh boo! Luves!

Patience is Acquired

Patience is something I have needed for well...since Friday. My kiddos got Food Poisoning from Tanos.(A pizza Place) The only thing that place has that is actually good is the cheesy bread. So needless to say Projectile Vomit everywhere. I would fall asleep next to my son and Wham! I would jump off the couch because Puke would be going in my direction. We probably did over 50 loads of blankets and then cleaned puke off couchs, stairs and any other place out in the open. Yeah so I am so over that. Yesterday It was a huge Dose of Patience. Huge! Hear is the joys of having two kids. When they are sick they want you...BUT they want you for themselves. Since their is only one of me, well that is a bit impossible. So needless to say, It was full of screaming and fighting because I am "My mommy". So I turned on Umizoomi and took a shower. When I came back I would not sit down. Did not want to hear them fight again. We are in the "terrible twos" and "Independent Threes". Usually not this bad. One of the little mans that I babysit came over (1) and he was great. I really enjoy babysitting that is one true fact. I got so much done. Moved two bookcases upstairs. Which gosh, why make them out of real wood, that shit is heavy! Then realizing how many books and other stuff I have. Took my 3 hours of non stop working. Which was so worth it.I figured Yes I could tell my husband to move it after he got off work. But he would question it or say something. Honestly I didn't really want to deal with it. I know I wanted it moved and did not care if I did it by myself. I know have a less creepy room and know have an Exercise room! Treadmill, Bike, Yoga Mats, Wii Fit Plus, Tons of Workout Videos and 10 minute trainer...Which should really be called 30 minutes of intense workout. I love it. I have 14.2 more pounds to lose before I step foot in my first goal.It is exciting to see that pants are falling down when I run up the stairs :) I have all of my skinny clothes sadly they are way emo since that was my phase. So we may have to throw some of the corsets back. I am okay with Strips and stars though. I have bought A Gir hoodie and it hangs up on the wall of my exercise room just waiting for me :) I am a way over my head with my life it seems. I have Zeke and Lori who are usually great helpers. I can be outside and they play while staying near me. Last week I got Sun poisoning. I hate being White. I am Italian and love being dark. My daughter is just as dark as me :) I love that. Anywho. I dug up the first part of my garden and now have 5 lovely rose plants in a circle. Orange, Red, Pink...at the moment the other two are being forgotten. I still have to make a rock circle around them and fill it with mulch. Plus I still have a blue rose and wild rose to plant...plus a Green Grape plant! So lets just say I am lacking. I also need to attempt to make a vegetable garden...plus I babysit a 1 year old and a 2 year old. Ohh and I am growing Mimosa Trees, Cherry Blossom Trees and a Cherry weeping willow! All those pretty trees. In the music word I am falling in love with the band called Fun. They sing We are Young. Just watch the video they did it all in one take! It is for sure insane. Also Won't give up by Jason Mraz is a song that is just plain amazing. I love it in all ways. I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not And who I am That is all for now...Enjoy your day!

Insomnia...

Just hold me tight, lay by my side and let me be the one who calls you Baby all the time

When I'm alone time goes so slow I need you here with me and how my mistakes have made Your heart break Still I need you here with me Baby I'm here

I found my place in the world Could stare at your face for the rest of my days

I miss you everyday. You are so far away. I wish I could touch your beautiful face. Graze my lips across your neck. Stray my fingers through your hair. Lightly kiss your succulent lips. Trace your tattoos that drive me crazy. You whisk the nightmares away and hold me up when I think I should falter. I miss you everyday, I hope the view from Heaven is lovely.

Kiddos

You ever think "wow how old am I"

I lived next to this family when I went to Delta. I actually knew this family's daughter and I have basically been there since the other two daughters of this family was born. So Tomorrow I babysit the son of somebody I have know since they were a baby....Wow. She is probably 19 or 20 at the most. Gosh, do I feel old. Its one of those I have known you forever. I Remember her mom being pregnant with her. SO so Weird. I am only in my early 20s but its funny every kid I babysit for my bosses are younger than me.

It doesn't bother me watching other peoples kids. They all have different personalities. All throw different fits, all get happy by something else, and so many just quirks. I really like being a babysitter. I have thought about being some kind of child care provider or go to school for young child care. But eeeh...I love one or two even three but not like 10 or 11. That may just be too much.

Lets see how tomorrow goes. My kids are 3 & 4. Then you have a 1 yr old and a 2 yr old :)

Pregnant age: 18 & 19
Gave birth age: 19 & 20
Found out: 1 month & 1 month
Gender: male & female
Due date: July 4th 2008 & August 5th 2009
Birthday: July 16th 2008 & August 6th 2009
Labor pain: Nothing, was natural
Labor type: Induced Ulcer Pills & Broken Water/Whiff of Plitosin
Pain reliever: Nubain for stiches
Time: 5:43 a.m. & 12:01 a.m.
Weight:8lbs 9 oz & 8lbs 6oz
Name: Ezeckial Zacchreus & Lorilye Zanny

Lots of Time ?

So I have been enjoying this weather. It is 80's in Ohio!

Okay I have been enjoying it too much. But I mean can you blame me :) On Sunday I decided to take rocks from the top of our hill all the way around the pond to my garden. It is quite a workout running up the hill and then lifting heavy rocks. Walking all the way back...gosh did my calves burn. According to my pedometer I did 2 miles on just that. Then just cleaning up the yard and running after the kids it is lovely.

Monday I hated the set up of plants around here. They had on just the left side of the sidewalk 3 holly bushes in a circle with a tree in the middle. Ya, so that bugged the heck out of me. So I ended up ripping up tons of grass to put the tree in the front yard,one of the holly bushes in the side yard and one holly bush on either side of the sidewalk. Plus I dug up a 3 ft circle of grass to plant my weeping Cherry Tree. If you have never seen one of these trees, they are absolutely beautiful. While doing this I got to see a Semi Crash into a car. Looked like the car ran the stop sign. We watched life flight land in the field right across the street. It was intense, seeing how many service people were there. Such a beautiful day for such negligence.

Yesterday it was in the High 80's! We were outside all day long. We even went Swimming :) Swimming in March! I am completely freaked out about water I cant see the bottom of. Having also full knowledge we have huge catfish made it even worst. I just keep moving a lot so I didn't have to think about it. Cannot wait til summer so every morning I can do laps :) We also are digging up a old brush pile. The End result 10 rose plants, peonies, Mimosa Trees, and strawberries. Probably much more, but need to see the roses done first. This week of beautiful weather is ending on Sunday and it will be back to spring weather. Oh well! If only summer felt this good at 80 or if it even stayed in the 80's.

I have also decided to get a riding lawnmower. But I decided I still want to push mow most of the lawn (5 acres) by push mowing. We do have a 3/4 acre pond with deck and beach, plus a huge barn, Dog Barn, and a Car Barn. Plus the handful of tree and garden. In the long run it really isn't that much. Plus even that little bit of exercise is okay with me. I have so much to get done before his whole family is here.

Signing out, lots to do today :)

Welcoming Spring

I am utterly in the blissfulness of Spring. SShhh I know it is not technically spring. But have you walked out side Lately! It is amazing. In this move I have no idea what to expect here. I don't have rose plants to prune and get ready, Even though this weekend I am digging for my rose garden. I am prepared to be filthy. I love roses,picking them, pruning them, and setting them up in vases. I just plain love it and all the colors!

I am also feeling the Bliss of pure love. After Struggling with the bank and getting our home, I feel a huge (HUGE) uplifting. We are living here. I can let me dogs out and they can run for hours. Running around the pond, the orchard or even just in the yard. It is beautiful. Star Grass coming up everywhere. My Wisteria and Honeysuckle are blooming. This weekend I have to Prune all the orchard. Apple and Cherries and then spray them with Dormant Oil. On top of that I have to put 2 gallons of aqua shade in the pond. My grandparents are proud of us. Which on top of everything makes me smile and fills me with joy. They also bought me a table which I am excited about. My grandparents are my everything besides my parents.

I am loving the space! Living in a Trailer is nice, but I can have all my animals and it is still not crowded! 2 Alaskan Malamutes, 1 half Schnauzer, 2 cats and 3 birds. Oh and a ferret! I love being able to go in the kitchen and my kids are all the way in the living room. I love my kids don't get me wrong but now I can breathe. I have to actually yell for my husband. Key world Yell for him, not at him. Lol. Seems like Love is up between David and I.

My husband is a clean freak, his parents well...they don't know how to clean. So because of that he is in a mood of I have to clean or it will end up like his parents. My parents are clean freaks so you know my house is almost perfect. David finds the little things as soon as she gets home he starts to clean. Having a three year old boy (almost 4) is hard. He is one to keep you on your toes. Plus teaching him to write, talk, and everything else is hard. He is one active child who never stops. Then I have patient Lorilye who never gets in trouble but when she does. She will scream and throw a hell tantrum. THank God she is an angel. We are in the mists of potty training and it is amazing. When David gets home I am ready for my 5 minutes alone or at least a lot of help. On top of this I babysit an amazing one year old :) Keeps me wanting a baby down. He is just as good unless he is teething then he tries to bite,lol. One year olds. Lately, David has been home cleaning and organizing things that can wait. Finally, after talking to my best friend about it. Yesterday, I talked to him. I have a horrid sleep insomnia. Plus Zeke will wander in our bed about 4am and Lori has been terrified of her bedroom since we moved. Which my kids have slept all night since they were newborns. This is news of waking up to me. Last night Tiara slept with Zeke and he stayed in his bed. Thats his boy. Anywho, off subject David said to me he completely understood how much I needed him and he was sorry if It felt like he wasn't helping. So he is back to being a helper husband! God do I love him. I cannot imagine having 3 or more kids. I will stick to my two for sure.

I have learned to talk to him. I don't want to make mistakes plus we are working on seven years this year. Communication has been really hard in the past for us. Now it is practically an open door. I can actually say with him I feel like we will be together for the rest of our lives. What made us weak made us stronger. This is love :P

Potty Training.

Potty Training...It is such a ominous word. In fact I hate the word, Loath it. A huge Journey of.....learning.

My son was learning with my friends daughter. I babysat her at the time. She was 2 turning 3 and Zeke was 1 turning 2. Zeke followed Violet and in no time at about 12-14 months was potty trained fully during the day. It was hard for me to give up diapers at night. Due to the scariness of the whole no diaper. When we went to Kentucky he was dry for 6 hours...it was time to give diapers up. He was an easy one. He was so for it, to get out of the diapers. Knocking on the door when he went potty and Stickers everywhere.

Lorilye is my little Diva. She has never really went on the potty. But she takes her diaper off as soon as she pees or poops. Tells me when she pees or poops. She knows her words. So yesterday we went all day without Diapers. Training Panties and bamn she was peeing in them. Never got made at her. She would cry, she hates messes. I would reassure her that it is okay. Today we tried again. She told me she was going pee...well I thought she already did...delayed 2 seconds and she was peeing. Later then, she took off her panties and I asked her to sit on her potty. Moved it to the living room due to the earlier accident and bam...my baby went on the potty. She had David, Lindsay and I cheering her on :) She was all excited. Getting a chart and more stickers tonight. We got her some pull ups even though I am only using those when we leave the house. Training undies are quite absorbent so it only takes me some little spraying on cleaner.

To think in 4 months or sooner...no more diapers ever again. Except the kids I babysit that is insane. She is growing up so much :) Big Tip to first time potty trainers....don't listen to all the horror stories. There are way too many out there. It could be completely easy and fun even. Don't let it frighten you

My little Lorilye Zanny :)

MMMhmm Pond

My pond is teasing me. Like utterly just flaunting into my face. Our pond is Blue. Hence Blue because we put a dye in it so that algae doesn't grow and Plants do not. It is completely safe for the fish, People, and all the animals. So that is kind of exciting. We also have a Windmill that pumps a bubblier. The pond does all the work for itself. I love being around it. Paddling and on the shore. Beautiful....but It is freezing. Which suxxxxs. I cannot wait for it to be death warm and to jump into our huge pond. Exciting. We have so much to do here and it takes 4 laps around the property to do a mile...and I have to get a bike since town is 5 miles away.

It is nice being able to sit outside and relax. Our neighbors are in screaming range but not immediate. Its so quiet here. When the kids go to nap or bed its just pure silence....Beautiful. Also never have to hear mexican polka! Which is a lifesaver!I think one more day of that for 8 hours may have made me crazy.

Life is going good. Reality is a great thing :)

Life as I know it

So first things first. My hair was bleached for about a second (24 hours) It was not enough power to kill my red hair soooo....I had Pink Hair for a while and Blonde.

So I started my whole getting my daughters room in order :) First thing first my friend gave me a mahogany dresser. It was originally painted White and Blue. But I decided that I was all over sanding, priming and turning this dresser white and Pink..It was been primed 6 times so far. Tomorrow I paint :)

So I have done so much since Friday. Living here has so much to offer. We go paddle boating a lot and running around the property. Plus my puppy is all about boating and I am pretty sure my cat is too. The malamute girls just run around the pond while we paddle. We have also found out that our carpet is also stain proof. Good old alcohol. Pretty much no time for myself. Also babysitting has also picked up :) Yay, time to get back on track.

Finally

I am finally where I belong. I as of 3pm on Friday own a 5 bedroom country house with 5 acres. 3/4 of an acre is a blue pond.

This house is a gem. Trimmed in Oak and hundred years of history. The Newells before us took amazing care of this house. Sure 2days into living here we already ripped down wallpaper and redoing the room. Thats because I loath wallpaper. This place is comftable to relax in or go outside and run!

More to come once I unpack more :)

nightmare...please wake me up....

How I deal with things ...I pretty much push the problem and things/people around it away. This time it is David's Family once again. Again they have made me regret trying to forgive them for the first things. His family are the kinda people that want to talk about things...but only when the talking is too late. Hmmm...Too late. So at this time David is mad as well. Ironic. The nicest guy that people know and he is ready to give them up. I am walking away with their grandchildren and not looking back.

I get I am hard headed and stubborn. But to go behind my back to do something that pertains to us...well duh I am pissed. I even wrote I don't really want to talk about it. I don't. I want to walk away and act like they don't exist. Why? Because its who I am. Its my defense mechanize. When I get confronted or even in the explanation of why something preventable happens. I have a very very bad temper. I compare it to a little kid who blows up and everyone around just wants to walk away.I tend to attack when in a corner. Vicious bringing up everything and spitting it back. I am completely aware of my bad habit. Hence why I try not to get angry. I hate hurting people. My temper use to be tons worst starting from 6-8th grade and then my freshman year after almost getting suspended I just lost it. I cured it to a point that was manageable. Not Perfect but I have to be pushed, pushed and then I explode. Guilty. This time just like last time it was all on them.

We are moving into our beautiful house tomorrow. Starting my life over. The only people I need our my family and my parents/grandparents. Plus my loving friends. Do I hurt. Sure. But a little distance crushes the bridges and all they can do is blame themselves. So tomorrow is the big day. We move and this nightmare can end.