Thursday, May 19, 2011
Crashed and Burned
So as of today I crashed myself. WHich is great a huge weight lifted off a daily routine burned and I couldnt be happier
Stay at home mom?Lazy? Yeah right
Lately, I do not know where my head has been. This feeling is becoming ever stronger inside my head and in my very soul.. I do not get it at all. I feel so much confidence, expecting too much of people, urging to exercise til exhaustion, Negative, Egotistic, Abating life, Original Sin, provoking people, Being selfish, and so much more. Lately I have called this Second chance a Disaster of a relapse. I have no idea what has brung this on. Everything is going so perfect. Everything. I love my life yet something is filling my brain with these destructive Egotistical Thoughts. Which I guess is okay with some of them, because a lot of people do get down on themselves and doubt their ability.
Why? Seriously doubt yourself. You have one life to live. Live it to the fullest. I think the ominous weather is being destructive on my thoughts. Rain has always had a huge part in the destruction of my mind. Fall is ever uplifting and Winter is a sparkling wonderland. That ever sound is amazingly amplified. I love it.
Lately, facebook or rather people on facebook are pissing me off. Mostly people who claim to be stay at home moms. It just fucking pisses me off that people think being a stay at home mom is boring, were lazy, nothing to do, or I guess Poor because only your husband is working. I don't know what kind of mother they are but the only time I get free time is morning, naptime, and oh yeah when my husband is home.
My day starts at 5:30 a.m. Yes kiddos I am awake with the sun. I go for a 30min to an Hour of running/Walking my Alaskan malamutes. I make my husbands lunch. Kiss him goodbye. I then do some start of cleaning. We in my house refuse to have messes, including kid toys everywhere. They have two bedrooms to keep there toys in. Then at about oh...10:30 the kids wake up. I make then some eyes, pancakes, french toast, or anything else they want. Cleaning dishes, sweeping up fur, taking care of my bird, exercise. Play with the kiddos til lunch. Make lots more food. THen play until 2:00 naptime. They sleep maybe two hours which is me finishing everything, starting dinner, phone calls, and more exercise. Then they wake up and then daddy may be home. Then its time for the kids to eat and then if its nice the kids play at the park and I go on a 1-2 mile walk with my best friend. Home finally at sometime and my bedtime is like 2 am. Hmm...yup I am so lazy.
Not only that but we have enough money for me to be a stay at home mom so In that case I dont have to fight with my husband. I get what I want.
No amount of money would make me quit my favorite job. Stay at hime mom
Why? Seriously doubt yourself. You have one life to live. Live it to the fullest. I think the ominous weather is being destructive on my thoughts. Rain has always had a huge part in the destruction of my mind. Fall is ever uplifting and Winter is a sparkling wonderland. That ever sound is amazingly amplified. I love it.
Lately, facebook or rather people on facebook are pissing me off. Mostly people who claim to be stay at home moms. It just fucking pisses me off that people think being a stay at home mom is boring, were lazy, nothing to do, or I guess Poor because only your husband is working. I don't know what kind of mother they are but the only time I get free time is morning, naptime, and oh yeah when my husband is home.
My day starts at 5:30 a.m. Yes kiddos I am awake with the sun. I go for a 30min to an Hour of running/Walking my Alaskan malamutes. I make my husbands lunch. Kiss him goodbye. I then do some start of cleaning. We in my house refuse to have messes, including kid toys everywhere. They have two bedrooms to keep there toys in. Then at about oh...10:30 the kids wake up. I make then some eyes, pancakes, french toast, or anything else they want. Cleaning dishes, sweeping up fur, taking care of my bird, exercise. Play with the kiddos til lunch. Make lots more food. THen play until 2:00 naptime. They sleep maybe two hours which is me finishing everything, starting dinner, phone calls, and more exercise. Then they wake up and then daddy may be home. Then its time for the kids to eat and then if its nice the kids play at the park and I go on a 1-2 mile walk with my best friend. Home finally at sometime and my bedtime is like 2 am. Hmm...yup I am so lazy.
Not only that but we have enough money for me to be a stay at home mom so In that case I dont have to fight with my husband. I get what I want.
No amount of money would make me quit my favorite job. Stay at hime mom
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Natural?
I have become obsessed with taking care of myself. I have even started to evolve my life around exercising.Never thought I would love exercise and I would have to say my favorite food is a turkey wrap w/wheat wrap and a salad with tomatoes, eggs, and a smidge of Cottage cheese. Oranges have become a horrible addiction, due to the fact the Citrus acid can rot your teeth. Pregnancy already gave me 18 cavities...that are nicely porcelain fixed. I would also like to say Depo-Provera is the worst thing in the world by far. Tons of people have gained weight or not been able to lose weight due to this birth control. Plus it can cause osteoporosis. Then moment I got my 6 months of withdraw from it. I have lost almost 15 pounds... I mean I am at 13 but whoo need tons more lost.
I have also started becoming a product queen. For some reason, I have started having breakout. My face is not a zit breeding ground. So i decided to get some stuff. First I bought, morning scrub + Clean and Clear + Pore Dimishing. I got the pore thing just because the smaller your pores are the less likely you will get zits. So then I have a Zap Gel plu since I feel like I have black circles under my eyes. Got some natural aveeno eye circle crap. Then over all the some pore cream so my face dosent get all dried out from the constant washing. Its all working which makes me think the 100+ dollars I just spent on them was worth it.
The makeup I use every once in a while is Natural Minerals. I do not want to be orange and I love to tan. So because of those things I like natural or no makeup. I love Straighting my hair. Its my favorite past time that and dying it. People have liked my hair a lot better blond. You just have to be careful so it doesn't soak in too bad. Minerals also feel so light. I even use natural hair shampoo and conditioner.
As I watched my brother who is roughly 7 years older than me grow up and go to high school. He also used acne creme and took a shower every morning. Got screamed at by my mom for walking outside in cold with wet hair. My brother is someone that I value his opinion more than anyone I know. I mean come on a Honor student and A West Point Graduate and 2 tours overseas. WHew. I think because my whole family strives to be perfect I am now following. I remeber when I was little and my mom spending hours in the bathroom to get her hair perfect and everything else. She is and was beautiful to me no matter if she just woke up or not. Shes my mom. In fact, I wasnt allowed to wear makeup until I was almost 17 let alone dye my hair. Painting my finger nails was a no too haha. My daughter is already a girly girly. I was when I was little then I grew into a tom boy then to a prep..
Funny how life changes so much. ... Its funny when I think of Natural Even both my kids births were without any medicine besides when I got my stitches. Even though to be honest it didnt really hurt too much.
I have also started becoming a product queen. For some reason, I have started having breakout. My face is not a zit breeding ground. So i decided to get some stuff. First I bought, morning scrub + Clean and Clear + Pore Dimishing. I got the pore thing just because the smaller your pores are the less likely you will get zits. So then I have a Zap Gel plu since I feel like I have black circles under my eyes. Got some natural aveeno eye circle crap. Then over all the some pore cream so my face dosent get all dried out from the constant washing. Its all working which makes me think the 100+ dollars I just spent on them was worth it.
The makeup I use every once in a while is Natural Minerals. I do not want to be orange and I love to tan. So because of those things I like natural or no makeup. I love Straighting my hair. Its my favorite past time that and dying it. People have liked my hair a lot better blond. You just have to be careful so it doesn't soak in too bad. Minerals also feel so light. I even use natural hair shampoo and conditioner.
As I watched my brother who is roughly 7 years older than me grow up and go to high school. He also used acne creme and took a shower every morning. Got screamed at by my mom for walking outside in cold with wet hair. My brother is someone that I value his opinion more than anyone I know. I mean come on a Honor student and A West Point Graduate and 2 tours overseas. WHew. I think because my whole family strives to be perfect I am now following. I remeber when I was little and my mom spending hours in the bathroom to get her hair perfect and everything else. She is and was beautiful to me no matter if she just woke up or not. Shes my mom. In fact, I wasnt allowed to wear makeup until I was almost 17 let alone dye my hair. Painting my finger nails was a no too haha. My daughter is already a girly girly. I was when I was little then I grew into a tom boy then to a prep..
Funny how life changes so much. ... Its funny when I think of Natural Even both my kids births were without any medicine besides when I got my stitches. Even though to be honest it didnt really hurt too much.
Monday, May 16, 2011
Weddings
These were my wedding cups. We were married September 14th 2010. A beautiful Wedding at my grandparents house with our closes relatives. In front of a beautiful white brick fireplace. Surrounded by the people we cared about the most. We were together for five years before we got married. So it was well worth the weight. True love. We do just about everything together and we have had our fallouts but I love this relationship. Every changing. No strings to hold us down and support each other.
In 2 more weeks we will be going to our first wedding. Davids brother, Levi is getting married to an amazing woman. I cannot wait for this vacation. To be lazy on the beach and have nothing to do but be with my children and husband. Next wedding our best friends, Lauren and Will will be in Mansfield and it by all standards has been a long wait. Third is My brother, David and Ashley. I have been waiting 22 years for my brother to get married. He deserves the world and he found it in her. Lastly, is Davids cousin Amanda and Brad. So many weddings in 2 months. My brothers is in Minnesota a very long drive but for sure I will say I cannot wait for theses people to get married. See how there marriages unfold whether it be beautiful or horrid. I wish them all the best and Dammit kiddos. Need more kids.
I finished our will today....
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Lestat....Twilight?
As a person who is infatuated with Vampires. Growing up with Anne Rice Vampires. Interview with a Vampire and Awesome books of the series. I have loved the entire Vampire thing. It turns me on to be Frank. Underworld is the darker side. But I started to watch Twilight New Moon and actually enjoyed the story line. Maybe not so much the sparkle sparkle, thats a little much. By far, Alice and Jane are my favorite characters. So as I need to go get the books now, I have read the forth book and probably the gayest thing ever written. I mean for like 3/4 of the book shes pregnant with a Vampire baby while shes human. Go baby go eat her. I would, I mean if I was a baby Vampire lol. Lets just see how the other movies are and such. I will not become obsessed. Lestat is still my best vampire.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Yay!
So today has been so much fun. We bought so much for the kiddos and next week it is our time to shop plus shoes and such. Cape Cod I am so excited for. Okay very overwhelming, and excited. 1 of our 4 weddings.. Davids brother is First, Will & Laurens, Amanda and Brads and My brothers in Minnesota. Excited yes. Have a house babysitter and I am almost done with routes. Excited.
Tonight is going to be so much fun to. Thatcher requested Margaritas. So Tequila it is. Me I need it. So bring it drunkin steph
Tonight is going to be so much fun to. Thatcher requested Margaritas. So Tequila it is. Me I need it. So bring it drunkin steph
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Weight loss imposters
I have been newly re-energized as of lately. Found a new show that I love. Its called X-weighted. It amazing people that have the goal of losing weight. That takes time to put a goal and lose weight. I love people who lose weight. They can stay committed to a long term goal to make them healthier.
Losing weight takes one hell of a person. As one of the trying to loss weight. There are times were you are exhausted, in pain, cannot take any more. So during that moment you go outside and go for a run. While your body screams in pain. Oh yeah, been there. People who are serious about losing weight, do not make excuses. Or how Jillian says it " Your going either die or get on this treadmill" I hear too many people have excuses. From kids to vacations. Its like who are you kidding. Yourself. Your only hurting yourself. Also the people that say oh...Diet Pepsi I am gonna put in my body and then lose some weight. Are you kidding me? Me. For the last 6+ months, I have cut anything thats unhealthy out of my body. Natural is way better. Added a multi vitamin and has even on my vacation made sure the place we were staying at had an exercise room. I will lose weight that is for sure. But its for me. Just for me.
Ahh..had to go there...people are imposers in the this weight loss world. Or another thing.. statement.. Okay we get it your fat..either do something about it or STFU.
Losing weight takes one hell of a person. As one of the trying to loss weight. There are times were you are exhausted, in pain, cannot take any more. So during that moment you go outside and go for a run. While your body screams in pain. Oh yeah, been there. People who are serious about losing weight, do not make excuses. Or how Jillian says it " Your going either die or get on this treadmill" I hear too many people have excuses. From kids to vacations. Its like who are you kidding. Yourself. Your only hurting yourself. Also the people that say oh...Diet Pepsi I am gonna put in my body and then lose some weight. Are you kidding me? Me. For the last 6+ months, I have cut anything thats unhealthy out of my body. Natural is way better. Added a multi vitamin and has even on my vacation made sure the place we were staying at had an exercise room. I will lose weight that is for sure. But its for me. Just for me.
Ahh..had to go there...people are imposers in the this weight loss world. Or another thing.. statement.. Okay we get it your fat..either do something about it or STFU.
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