It is so hard for me to give up my scale for six weeks. Everyday I take not of my weight, fat content and my Water weight. As of Sunday I will weigh myself, take my measurements, and then my scale is having a 6 week vacation, so I cannot cheat. It is an addiction and it will be hard. But I started Slim in 6 today to add to my weight loss. I think it is totally achievable. One video (1 week), Second video (2 weeks) and them the last video for three weeks. It will be worth it. I am running everyday too.
I also have the fair coming up...so I have so much to do and have to make sure it sticks..plus taking pills...I hate pills.Being anemic for 18 months was the hardest thing for me to take my iron pills :( But I guess if I want my scale back I am going to do this.
Have a good weekend everyone, I will be with my husband and kiddos, keeping up the fun :)
Friday, August 19, 2011
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Smile, because you have a reason to.
Yesterday was an amazing Family day. It makes me so very happy. We spent the morning at a park, then went out to eat, and lastly went to another park while I went Running/walking 2 miles. Got some sunburn, but it was so worth it, then got up this morning. Weighed myself and then Bam! 23 pounds lost. Amazing.
So many people I talk to do not know how to start this weight loss thing. For me, I gained the weight from happy Pregnancies. I will never blame my children or make then feel like they made me gain the weight. Maybe since when I was pregnant I slept all the time. The fact is they gave me the opportunity to be stronger. To fight for something I had never understood before. Weight loss. Losing weight helps you gain so much, self eestem but also a sense of who you are.
I was skinny my entire life. I complained about my hips, turned out they were great baby pushers. I thought I could always change. I was not vain, and my friends cam in all sizes. I believe a real friend is created from the inside, most people are not happy with there outside. For me this journey is going to make my kids stronger as well. They will see what their mother has accomplished and have strength from it. I get my strength from my children, friends, family and my husband.
It took Depo Provera to wake me up. That Birth control is the devil for me. Instead of making me gain weight, like most people have problems with, it made me stick to the weight. Which in all really makes you bitter or emotional. But after the six months of quitting my birth control I started my journey. I immediately started losing weight. I picked up Ea Active 2 and just started.
It hurt but it is so worth it now that I look back. So So worth it. No matter the ripped tendons, calf pain, and bruises it was all worth it. It still is worth it. I ran a 1/2 mile yesterday and was so proud of myself. Nobody said this would be easy. If fact it is the hardest thing. Hardest,most painful excruciating thing in someones whole life. Either you have the motivation or you don't. It takes one hell of a person to do this journey. I look up to every single person who has kept their journey alive and won. It is amazing high. I encourage anyone who needs to lose weight to have faith. Always have a positive mind and keep it up even when you hit a wall. The wall sucks but you have to climb it.
Make your life worth something :)
So many people I talk to do not know how to start this weight loss thing. For me, I gained the weight from happy Pregnancies. I will never blame my children or make then feel like they made me gain the weight. Maybe since when I was pregnant I slept all the time. The fact is they gave me the opportunity to be stronger. To fight for something I had never understood before. Weight loss. Losing weight helps you gain so much, self eestem but also a sense of who you are.
I was skinny my entire life. I complained about my hips, turned out they were great baby pushers. I thought I could always change. I was not vain, and my friends cam in all sizes. I believe a real friend is created from the inside, most people are not happy with there outside. For me this journey is going to make my kids stronger as well. They will see what their mother has accomplished and have strength from it. I get my strength from my children, friends, family and my husband.
It took Depo Provera to wake me up. That Birth control is the devil for me. Instead of making me gain weight, like most people have problems with, it made me stick to the weight. Which in all really makes you bitter or emotional. But after the six months of quitting my birth control I started my journey. I immediately started losing weight. I picked up Ea Active 2 and just started.
It hurt but it is so worth it now that I look back. So So worth it. No matter the ripped tendons, calf pain, and bruises it was all worth it. It still is worth it. I ran a 1/2 mile yesterday and was so proud of myself. Nobody said this would be easy. If fact it is the hardest thing. Hardest,most painful excruciating thing in someones whole life. Either you have the motivation or you don't. It takes one hell of a person to do this journey. I look up to every single person who has kept their journey alive and won. It is amazing high. I encourage anyone who needs to lose weight to have faith. Always have a positive mind and keep it up even when you hit a wall. The wall sucks but you have to climb it.
Make your life worth something :)
Monday, August 8, 2011
This month will be amazing
My facebook Status:Needs to get my sleep schedule messed with, sprinkled with some exercise, keep my mind preoccupied and keep on the whole sane life thing...and have time for everything that I don't have time for and make time...Changes are big and coming...let's just hope my brain can keep up with my body....lets see that -22 pounds go down way more...Just have to remember how amazing I am ♥, and fact I love having supportive friends and family ...Specially, you Amber Rose Golden....
After Having an ego blow...I am almost recovered. Pretty much because two special guys in my life are amazing. David's words were " Wow, babe you look amazing. I am starting to see the weight come off" I have been waiting to hear this since I started working out...My other friend was just as nice. He said "I am beautiful the way I am"This to me is just a nice friend, I want to lose more weight so I will take it as a compliment for now.
My sleep pattern is an absolute disaster. Literally, I cut every night on 3 hours of sleep because my body wants that much any more I am exhausted all day. And less and I am not sleeping at all. It is one of those happy medium things. Plus with my running schedule and my walking it is difficult to even be home by midnight. Let alone sleep after that. I guess, somehow I will figure it out.
Big changes are things I have started to unravel in my life. Some things I am not proud of but will always survive. Time to make mistakes and get back up. I am fighting a boss battle on repeat and sometimes I think it would be easier to quit. But as anyone who knows me, I am not easy and I choose the most difficult decision that there is. That is why I live to Breathe and fight to Breathe. I am a wife, a mommy, best friend, daughter, lover, friend, and I am just plain Stephanie Fawn. Which by my name I am the Crown. My Husband is the Beloved.My daughter is a Tempest/Siren. My son is the strength of God. We are have faith in our Zodiacs, Sagittarius(David),Aquarius(me), Cancer(son) and Leo(daughter) and a Gemini. I think we have it all covered. :) So let me make this month unbelievable...I celebrate 6 years with David September 4th...:)
After Having an ego blow...I am almost recovered. Pretty much because two special guys in my life are amazing. David's words were " Wow, babe you look amazing. I am starting to see the weight come off" I have been waiting to hear this since I started working out...My other friend was just as nice. He said "I am beautiful the way I am"This to me is just a nice friend, I want to lose more weight so I will take it as a compliment for now.
My sleep pattern is an absolute disaster. Literally, I cut every night on 3 hours of sleep because my body wants that much any more I am exhausted all day. And less and I am not sleeping at all. It is one of those happy medium things. Plus with my running schedule and my walking it is difficult to even be home by midnight. Let alone sleep after that. I guess, somehow I will figure it out.
Big changes are things I have started to unravel in my life. Some things I am not proud of but will always survive. Time to make mistakes and get back up. I am fighting a boss battle on repeat and sometimes I think it would be easier to quit. But as anyone who knows me, I am not easy and I choose the most difficult decision that there is. That is why I live to Breathe and fight to Breathe. I am a wife, a mommy, best friend, daughter, lover, friend, and I am just plain Stephanie Fawn. Which by my name I am the Crown. My Husband is the Beloved.My daughter is a Tempest/Siren. My son is the strength of God. We are have faith in our Zodiacs, Sagittarius(David),Aquarius(me), Cancer(son) and Leo(daughter) and a Gemini. I think we have it all covered. :) So let me make this month unbelievable...I celebrate 6 years with David September 4th...:)
Thursday, August 4, 2011
I will always be there for you!
Quote of the day:
"I will support you in whatever decisions you make, if you rob a bank we will still be friends"
There is a reason I have the friends I have. When I was in school I would literally talk on the phone either all night or all day. I am a talker. I would also spend so much time with my friends while balancing out my boyfriends. Of course, now we are older and I am married, 2 kids, and owning things. My friends have never faultered. These are friends you call up when your 18 and go We are Pregnant and they are just as excited as you are. Visiting you in the hospital. Calling at 3am to talk. Then I have my friends and then I have those you run into ever now and then. Talk maybe meet up for some brunch. But you never really tell those people what is in your brain. Its just one of those, Everything is perfect in my brain how about yours.
Real friends know how to deal with you and be around you and understand. I am glad I am blessed with these people. I think with everything I have seen and dealt with. These people are the most respected people in my life. These are the people I can be doing something completely wrong and they are still next to me. I feel so much pain for people who back stab their friends...its disgraceful. Utterly disgusting. As a friend, know your place. I expect unconditionally my friends no matter what. We have had the bad boyfriends, affairs, drugs, alchol, and so much more and still supported each other.
THats a real friend...I want to look back at my life and KNOW i am doing everything possible to be a great person and have no regrets. I am making my life Remarkable...with the tools I have.
To my best friend"Seeing the love of my life tonight, \\ She keeps all my deep dark secrets and I love her for that. There is defiantly a reason why we have been best friends for 9 years...since 7th grade. I love you, darling."
to me"gotta love the one person who would accept me when everyone else wouldn't...thanks for being there for me and not back stabbing me to be with the "in crowd", after 6th grade I lost all self confidence and respect but I always knew you were there for me...just returning the favor =)"
"I will support you in whatever decisions you make, if you rob a bank we will still be friends"
There is a reason I have the friends I have. When I was in school I would literally talk on the phone either all night or all day. I am a talker. I would also spend so much time with my friends while balancing out my boyfriends. Of course, now we are older and I am married, 2 kids, and owning things. My friends have never faultered. These are friends you call up when your 18 and go We are Pregnant and they are just as excited as you are. Visiting you in the hospital. Calling at 3am to talk. Then I have my friends and then I have those you run into ever now and then. Talk maybe meet up for some brunch. But you never really tell those people what is in your brain. Its just one of those, Everything is perfect in my brain how about yours.
Real friends know how to deal with you and be around you and understand. I am glad I am blessed with these people. I think with everything I have seen and dealt with. These people are the most respected people in my life. These are the people I can be doing something completely wrong and they are still next to me. I feel so much pain for people who back stab their friends...its disgraceful. Utterly disgusting. As a friend, know your place. I expect unconditionally my friends no matter what. We have had the bad boyfriends, affairs, drugs, alchol, and so much more and still supported each other.
THats a real friend...I want to look back at my life and KNOW i am doing everything possible to be a great person and have no regrets. I am making my life Remarkable...with the tools I have.
To my best friend"Seeing the love of my life tonight, \\ She keeps all my deep dark secrets and I love her for that. There is defiantly a reason why we have been best friends for 9 years...since 7th grade. I love you, darling."
to me"gotta love the one person who would accept me when everyone else wouldn't...thanks for being there for me and not back stabbing me to be with the "in crowd", after 6th grade I lost all self confidence and respect but I always knew you were there for me...just returning the favor =)"
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Thoughts
Goals for Uncoming:
Dye Hair White and Black
Snake Bits and Corset Piercing(Back)
Cherry Blossom Tattoo(Side,boob, arm)
Get my Blue Quaker
I think I goT it all :)
Dye Hair White and Black
Snake Bits and Corset Piercing(Back)
Cherry Blossom Tattoo(Side,boob, arm)
Get my Blue Quaker
I think I goT it all :)
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
..words..
A dreary mess am I
yet you hold me in such regard
Your kiss is contagious
longing for more, yet holding back
Breathless am I, perfect is in
Tell me is this real?
You hold my heart for eternity
Yet so does he....
Lost in a shadow of doubt
Clouded by emotion
Blinded by love yet again
Causes unseen, some 4 years ago
Haunting my very being
Destroyed by me
Forgiveness you have granted me..
I didn't deserve it.
I never had..followed this course unseen
Untrusted..many words to follow
Sleep comes peacefully
Your by my side
Pretending ...
yet you hold me in such regard
Your kiss is contagious
longing for more, yet holding back
Breathless am I, perfect is in
Tell me is this real?
You hold my heart for eternity
Yet so does he....
Lost in a shadow of doubt
Clouded by emotion
Blinded by love yet again
Causes unseen, some 4 years ago
Haunting my very being
Destroyed by me
Forgiveness you have granted me..
I didn't deserve it.
I never had..followed this course unseen
Untrusted..many words to follow
Sleep comes peacefully
Your by my side
Pretending ...
Monday, August 1, 2011
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