This week has been one of those. Exhilarating weeks from hell. My best friend got to endure the painful lost of someone that was like a grandpa to her. Trying to keep her to a point of bearable was hard.How unprepared we are for something so inevitable. I have lost my Ex-boyfriend, Great-Grandpa, and Great-Grandpa, I was very close to each of them. How unexpected their deaths were, they taught me so many values and morals. I may have lost them on earth, but I am sure the view from heaven is beautiful. Just reminds me how valuable are the ones we love, they could be gone the very next day. The funeral was on my birthday, joyous.
Then also on my birthday a baby was born to one of David's friends. Shows how life continues even when it seems it should stop for mourning. Life keeps going on and we get lost in it sometime. Get prepared for 9 months for a baby something joyous and death no warning and seconds. How ironic is life.
I celebrated life. Went to TGIF's and for the first time in the 4 times I went there I did not throw up. ALmost but didn't. Drank, Toasted Another year. Went to see The Woman In Black...yeah...the Beginning pretty good and then just went stupid at the end. I don't get bothered by scary movies or even jump. I guess that what happens when you watch IT when your 8.
Gosh I am so spacing. I am here, but completely not. I keep thinking about stuff that I would rather not. It has been really hard having one of my best friend move away. Devastating. I just want him to put his arms around me and tell me he is staying. I get change is inevitable it just hurts. Here we are buying a house, staying here, have a life. Staying here to watch our children grow up. In a sense, its comfortable, knowing we are safe. At the same time.....my mind is still set on joining a force. It's senseless to most. I have a family. I have two amazing kiddos and a lovely husband. My parents and grandpa is an hour away. I have heard the complaints of army life from both my brother (Captain in the Army) and my brother in law and practically half of my friends. But I love it, I have always flirted with the idea. I might as well be putting a gun to David's head every time I talk about it. My seconds are forensic or mental Psychology or Personal Trainer. I like the prospects of both. I just yearn to travel, to support our country, to work my butt off, and absorb myself into that life. Selfish I know. Maybe when I start school again this year I will change my mind.
I think the self-discipline you need for these things...the test of it all is by far me. I am currently a stay at home mom. I think all these things are driving me crazy...
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Well then...Insomnia...
So.. as I was reading today and battling the latest insomnia attack...I was blow away by..a vagina Alarm Clock. Wow, the reasons I would give this to my friends. 1. the first words out of their mouth would be wtf! 2. Wtf 3. Wow, it has 31 settings. Yeah, this is no joke.They really wouldn't expect any less from me .I mean it must be made by a man obviously. What could be even better is seeing a plastic severed head with a vagina on the severed head...well...I mean that is one of those ah..Japan creepy things. Even creepier is who would buy this and then imagine going into someones bedroom and seeing a severed head vagina. The words...I am at the moment laughing so hard I can barley breathe.
In other news apparently if you deposit a big check in your bank account..they freeze your account. Apparently, in order to have money you must sell drugs. Me personally I would sell alcohol because I would be drunk. Like a Bartender just out of a car. I mean as appalling as Popcorn crack is..I will pass. Second thing I have learned this week is USDA loans just plain suck to get to the point we are at. That point that we see if we are approved in a couple days.This has just been a huge pain in the ass nightmare but when we walk into our house the first day. Well okay lets be honest after like a week its enjoyable. Because that entire first time in the house will be hauling your entire living stuff to the house. Countless sleepless nights, being sore, Pizza, and the question where the hell is .....? Then not to mention the next week of unpacking everything. Okay we'll we will enjoy it in like 3 weeks. Can't even invite anyone over to see it because it will look like a hoarders house. Seriously, just without out like a million gross things and where is that smell coming from.
You are the only exception, you are the only exception...Sorry Paramore is blowing my mind. Then my mind is like you so need blonde and Red hair...Yeah Yeah...Insomnia is like one of those things that is like wth am I doing up at 4am...how do I even manage to survive during the day. I don't know either. Specially, with working out, kids, and animals...Idk. With like 3 to 4 hours of sleep. I don't even know how people can over sleep. What is that? If I take sleeping pills I feel like I am drunk...and it is such a weird feeling. Honestly, they should put on the bottle Sensation of being Drunk. I could barley move but didn't sleep and was even kind of swaying.
In other news as playing Guitar Hero for Wii. There is an older song on it called Pour some Sugar on Me....While Drunk my friends and I took this song apart...I mean have you listened to it. Pour some sugar on me....I'm hot sticky Sweet...hmm I don't know about you..but ahh..sugar is extremely gritty and then if you get that shit on your bed, your never going to get rid of it. (It would be like being a Peep)10 weeks later, what the hell am I feeling, Sugar go figure. Then not to mention it says Sticky sweet so It is wet sugar which great you just ruined your sheets. .Hope to god your not diabetic, because then you are just fucked. Have you ever tried to get sugar out of your hair, no fun. I mean instead of Sugar. Make it like Maple Syrup..I mean really that is sugar. Pure sugar and who doesn't like Syrup...okay maybe diabetics. You know what is sexier than hearing "hey Honey, wanna get Mrs. Butters"
Know that you know what I think about.....oooohhhhh Cheeto......goes on in my brain...way to late. Also did I mention Hours of Guitar Hero/rock bank cause really wierd dreams. Naptime was me listening to second hand serenade and well playing guitar hero in my sleep...Yeah Idk...there was even leveling up....
Oh yeah in other news...my parents have had a Ps3 since the day it came out...I don't even have one but of course when I saw Final Fantasy 13-2 come out January 31st. I told David...alright I need that. So I am getting a Ps3 as my wow, you just worked your ass off to get this house. I only want Little Big Planet, Final Fantasy 13 and Final Fantasy 13-2. I have beat every final Fantasy up to this one and cannot help my addiction...Plus talk of releasing an updated Final Fantasy 7...hells yeah...If you don't know what Final Fantasy is...well you need to know it!
We are listening, but we are not blind...Sorry Snow Patrol. Needless to say..my blog of well nothing ness is to come to an end..4:29 a.m. ...Hello Insomnia..please sleep to some blaring music..well appreciated.
In other news apparently if you deposit a big check in your bank account..they freeze your account. Apparently, in order to have money you must sell drugs. Me personally I would sell alcohol because I would be drunk. Like a Bartender just out of a car. I mean as appalling as Popcorn crack is..I will pass. Second thing I have learned this week is USDA loans just plain suck to get to the point we are at. That point that we see if we are approved in a couple days.This has just been a huge pain in the ass nightmare but when we walk into our house the first day. Well okay lets be honest after like a week its enjoyable. Because that entire first time in the house will be hauling your entire living stuff to the house. Countless sleepless nights, being sore, Pizza, and the question where the hell is .....? Then not to mention the next week of unpacking everything. Okay we'll we will enjoy it in like 3 weeks. Can't even invite anyone over to see it because it will look like a hoarders house. Seriously, just without out like a million gross things and where is that smell coming from.
You are the only exception, you are the only exception...Sorry Paramore is blowing my mind. Then my mind is like you so need blonde and Red hair...Yeah Yeah...Insomnia is like one of those things that is like wth am I doing up at 4am...how do I even manage to survive during the day. I don't know either. Specially, with working out, kids, and animals...Idk. With like 3 to 4 hours of sleep. I don't even know how people can over sleep. What is that? If I take sleeping pills I feel like I am drunk...and it is such a weird feeling. Honestly, they should put on the bottle Sensation of being Drunk. I could barley move but didn't sleep and was even kind of swaying.
In other news as playing Guitar Hero for Wii. There is an older song on it called Pour some Sugar on Me....While Drunk my friends and I took this song apart...I mean have you listened to it. Pour some sugar on me....I'm hot sticky Sweet...hmm I don't know about you..but ahh..sugar is extremely gritty and then if you get that shit on your bed, your never going to get rid of it. (It would be like being a Peep)10 weeks later, what the hell am I feeling, Sugar go figure. Then not to mention it says Sticky sweet so It is wet sugar which great you just ruined your sheets. .Hope to god your not diabetic, because then you are just fucked. Have you ever tried to get sugar out of your hair, no fun. I mean instead of Sugar. Make it like Maple Syrup..I mean really that is sugar. Pure sugar and who doesn't like Syrup...okay maybe diabetics. You know what is sexier than hearing "hey Honey, wanna get Mrs. Butters"
Know that you know what I think about.....oooohhhhh Cheeto......goes on in my brain...way to late. Also did I mention Hours of Guitar Hero/rock bank cause really wierd dreams. Naptime was me listening to second hand serenade and well playing guitar hero in my sleep...Yeah Idk...there was even leveling up....
Oh yeah in other news...my parents have had a Ps3 since the day it came out...I don't even have one but of course when I saw Final Fantasy 13-2 come out January 31st. I told David...alright I need that. So I am getting a Ps3 as my wow, you just worked your ass off to get this house. I only want Little Big Planet, Final Fantasy 13 and Final Fantasy 13-2. I have beat every final Fantasy up to this one and cannot help my addiction...Plus talk of releasing an updated Final Fantasy 7...hells yeah...If you don't know what Final Fantasy is...well you need to know it!
We are listening, but we are not blind...Sorry Snow Patrol. Needless to say..my blog of well nothing ness is to come to an end..4:29 a.m. ...Hello Insomnia..please sleep to some blaring music..well appreciated.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Saying goodbye is Sweet Sorrow....
Today I am saying goodbye to one of Dearest, Beloved Guy Friend. He has just about all of the affection one guy can have and not be married to me. He is moving quite a bit away. At this point having him hug me and tell me he will be close, Sounds amazing. But as life is ever-changing, I am seeing him move away again and it rips my heart out of my chest. He is someone I love being around, with or even having a random non-conversation with.
We met in 9 years ago and have had an extreme connection. When I was cutting all the time, just to feel pain. Not to kill myself or what not. Nobody really knew I did it. He was the one person that didn't freak out. In his words everybody that knew was, and it wasn't doing any good. He got me to stop, my addiction to the pain and blood. He made me stronger. We walked everyday together, before and after school. Countless Hours of laughter. Also, he got me away from the hell I called my home life. We got along with the same people and he tolerated my friends. We have one of those connections no matter how long we haven't talked or how far we are apart we still love each other. He knows everything about me no strings attached and through the worst times in my life he was there for me. Friends like these are the ones everyone should hold on to. Nobody could ever replace him. We have a complete history on every level and without him I would fail. He helped my marriage more than he can ever comprehend. He helped me and I hate that he's leaving. I want to curl up on my bed and cry.
But since I can't do that. I will accept change and know he is some sort of technology away. David is my every lasting rock and he will help me through this like everything else in life. Speaking of my Life Day 27/90. Almost to that first 30! Its been a tough feat. Alas I think my Pelvis is having a bit of a problem. So I need to make a dr. Appt. to see what I twinge while doing side planks. One of those quick shoots of pain while doing them ...But what the heck I can work my butt off and nothing hurts. Then Side planks leave me with nothing. Seriously. Makes me so upset.
To put things in better light....Today is Saturday and it is 3:34 am should really go to bed. Hate my brain and its destroying capabilities.
We met in 9 years ago and have had an extreme connection. When I was cutting all the time, just to feel pain. Not to kill myself or what not. Nobody really knew I did it. He was the one person that didn't freak out. In his words everybody that knew was, and it wasn't doing any good. He got me to stop, my addiction to the pain and blood. He made me stronger. We walked everyday together, before and after school. Countless Hours of laughter. Also, he got me away from the hell I called my home life. We got along with the same people and he tolerated my friends. We have one of those connections no matter how long we haven't talked or how far we are apart we still love each other. He knows everything about me no strings attached and through the worst times in my life he was there for me. Friends like these are the ones everyone should hold on to. Nobody could ever replace him. We have a complete history on every level and without him I would fail. He helped my marriage more than he can ever comprehend. He helped me and I hate that he's leaving. I want to curl up on my bed and cry.
But since I can't do that. I will accept change and know he is some sort of technology away. David is my every lasting rock and he will help me through this like everything else in life. Speaking of my Life Day 27/90. Almost to that first 30! Its been a tough feat. Alas I think my Pelvis is having a bit of a problem. So I need to make a dr. Appt. to see what I twinge while doing side planks. One of those quick shoots of pain while doing them ...But what the heck I can work my butt off and nothing hurts. Then Side planks leave me with nothing. Seriously. Makes me so upset.
To put things in better light....Today is Saturday and it is 3:34 am should really go to bed. Hate my brain and its destroying capabilities.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Is it just me?
"No one is harder on me than myself, I inspire to be something truly above and beyond. No matter the things holding me back, I will bust down these gates and push though. No excuses, No Boundaries. Just Go for it and let nothing stop you. Only have one life to live, so MAKE it remarkable. If I died today, I would never Regret anything I did ♥ It all had a purpose. "
I live by this everyday. If I can't achieve my goals or be me than why even go on living. I am far from one of those weak woman who depend on their husband for everything emotional. In fact, I can tell my husband anything that comes into my head and well no matter what I say he is not surprised.I am glad to have such support from him and everyone else surrounding me.
Last night I was doing exercise 23 on Supreme 90. It was called Core Dynamics and being part of this. You look at the time 18 min....well damn this is going to be super hard...We start doing it and it was like wow this was easy. I felt my abs and how strong they had become. Feeling almost a washboard effect. Which was amazing. There were planks with putting your hands on your thighs, planks lifting your legs, jumping planks...as you get the point tons of planks. I am loving this workout so much Day 23 is a huge 'feat. Having a workout partner that we both complain how sore we are to each other is great. We have started doing Burpees on a regular basis too. A burpee in my definition is like hell...You squat pull your feet back into a plank and the jump up hands raised. So everyday we add on another one. We are on day two of that so nothing spectacular. On top of this we walk 4 miles every night...or ten like last night. We are sore but mentally capable of overcoming the physical failure. I think I have been sore for at least 24 days in a row :( I should be use to waking up and going damn..
I am really loving myself...I have defeated a lot to get here and sulking isn't part of my life. Plus since my bestie lives with me it is hard to not talk to her about everything. Oh yeah the best news of today we will be moving as early as February 10th! :) I am excite. My husband and I have worked so hard to get where we are and this house is our eternal prize. Finally to live in a house, that we have earned, all hard work! I will miss this trailer in the sense of this is where so much has happen. Married...2 kids...animals...surreal.
My birthday February 3rd is almost here. Next Friday...I am pretty sure I will be drunk. Of course, I like alcohol and it is my extreme weakness. But I do my toast in Vodka :) To another year of a new life and a new start. Full of confidence and hope. Because to be Cliche...I put my mind on something and it is happening. I will not falter..
In Tv news I am missing American Horror story even though the finale was pretty crappy. Next season they will be in a new house with new characters. Being Human is a pretty good too..Vampires, Ghosts, and Werewolves can't beat it. Once upon a Time a world of forgotten fairy tales strung into a real world. Lost Girl..I am really liking the premises of Fae..whether Light or Dark. House M.D. of course..havent missed an episode. Parenthood and Fringe are easily my favorite. Fridge is just like the x files and Parenthood goes on ever aspect of well..parenthood. If it wasn't for Dvr I would never watch Tv with all the time I exercise..
But Have a good week everyone. Reach for the Stars :)
I live by this everyday. If I can't achieve my goals or be me than why even go on living. I am far from one of those weak woman who depend on their husband for everything emotional. In fact, I can tell my husband anything that comes into my head and well no matter what I say he is not surprised.I am glad to have such support from him and everyone else surrounding me.
Last night I was doing exercise 23 on Supreme 90. It was called Core Dynamics and being part of this. You look at the time 18 min....well damn this is going to be super hard...We start doing it and it was like wow this was easy. I felt my abs and how strong they had become. Feeling almost a washboard effect. Which was amazing. There were planks with putting your hands on your thighs, planks lifting your legs, jumping planks...as you get the point tons of planks. I am loving this workout so much Day 23 is a huge 'feat. Having a workout partner that we both complain how sore we are to each other is great. We have started doing Burpees on a regular basis too. A burpee in my definition is like hell...You squat pull your feet back into a plank and the jump up hands raised. So everyday we add on another one. We are on day two of that so nothing spectacular. On top of this we walk 4 miles every night...or ten like last night. We are sore but mentally capable of overcoming the physical failure. I think I have been sore for at least 24 days in a row :( I should be use to waking up and going damn..
I am really loving myself...I have defeated a lot to get here and sulking isn't part of my life. Plus since my bestie lives with me it is hard to not talk to her about everything. Oh yeah the best news of today we will be moving as early as February 10th! :) I am excite. My husband and I have worked so hard to get where we are and this house is our eternal prize. Finally to live in a house, that we have earned, all hard work! I will miss this trailer in the sense of this is where so much has happen. Married...2 kids...animals...surreal.
My birthday February 3rd is almost here. Next Friday...I am pretty sure I will be drunk. Of course, I like alcohol and it is my extreme weakness. But I do my toast in Vodka :) To another year of a new life and a new start. Full of confidence and hope. Because to be Cliche...I put my mind on something and it is happening. I will not falter..
In Tv news I am missing American Horror story even though the finale was pretty crappy. Next season they will be in a new house with new characters. Being Human is a pretty good too..Vampires, Ghosts, and Werewolves can't beat it. Once upon a Time a world of forgotten fairy tales strung into a real world. Lost Girl..I am really liking the premises of Fae..whether Light or Dark. House M.D. of course..havent missed an episode. Parenthood and Fringe are easily my favorite. Fridge is just like the x files and Parenthood goes on ever aspect of well..parenthood. If it wasn't for Dvr I would never watch Tv with all the time I exercise..
But Have a good week everyone. Reach for the Stars :)
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Life
Welcome to The Snow! 
Does this stop me nah...we walked 4 miles in mounds of snow. Exciting was so worth the Pumpkin Spice...
I was as Red as my hair...
At the end I thought the cold knives stabbing us would stop us but we prevailed!
We are also on Day 21/90 of Supreme 90 I am currently well aware of every muscle and tendon that I have. We will beat this but it is not easy! We are not crazy just motivated! But it is so worth it every minute! I do not want to be fat the rest of my life..I already sit pretty on knowing I lost 30 pounds :) Somedays I don't want to do it and then Fawn pushes us. And sometimes she doesn't want to do it and I push her. Its Push and pull thing!
This is me! This is my life! I love working so hard for it...this is me.
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Does this stop me nah...we walked 4 miles in mounds of snow. Exciting was so worth the Pumpkin Spice...
I was as Red as my hair...
We are also on Day 21/90 of Supreme 90 I am currently well aware of every muscle and tendon that I have. We will beat this but it is not easy! We are not crazy just motivated! But it is so worth it every minute! I do not want to be fat the rest of my life..I already sit pretty on knowing I lost 30 pounds :) Somedays I don't want to do it and then Fawn pushes us. And sometimes she doesn't want to do it and I push her. Its Push and pull thing!
This is me! This is my life! I love working so hard for it...this is me.
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Saturday, January 14, 2012
Sanity has been Preserved!
Have you ever had that moment where your best friend's pug is snoring so loudly that you want to do things to the dog that Peta would frown upon. Welcome to my life.
I have recently figured out I do not want 4 kids ever. Let me explain. David originally wanted 4 kids. (Like his mom) Insane, right? I was happy with my 2 year old little Girl and 3 year old little Boy. One kid for each parent. They get as much attention as they want because Face it I am not the Duggards. 19 and counting I would probably have to be contained and put in the asylum. True Story. Anywho, my friend who moved in has a 2 year old boy. Seriously, we are going crazy from the word Train. So my life, 2 year old (Fawns kid) who is getting ready to potty train, picks on the kid I babysit, loves train, cries all the time, and oh yeah...we have agreed he needs help some days. 2 year old (Lorilye) who is a Princess she is spoiled more than most children, has a temper of the devil, you mess with her she will yell at you and punch you(poor boys) and likes her dollies. 3 year old (Ezeckial) is getting use to crying Colton usually screaming Shut Up Colton, cleaning up after Colton, Protecting his little sister, selfish at times(mine) and being my cuddle bunny. Then not to mention the one year old I babysit, but hes a baby so he does baby things. You know. So yeah, 4 kids usually most days...always 3. Its still amazing I can still take care of 4 kids, a Cockatiel, parakeets, 2 alaskan Malamute, Schnauzer/Pek./Shit-zu, Pug, clean the house, laundry, and workout! And Have a life...jesus yes I am amazing.
I will be first to tell you...Kids are amazing! But on those horrid day...ugh.....Celebrate Vacant Wombs! I hate people that always talk about how great they kids are...I imagine them having those bad days(they never talk about) and having a break down. Puts a smile on my face...we all know it happens. Its like one day or days they wake up as devil children and we wonder where our angels went. Been there ...try it with 3! Sex in the City says it Best...we love our children we just need to get away to stay sane.
Having a workout Partner is amazing! We are 15 days out of 30 today! I have seen so much improvement and hoping to move to 10lbs soon. It is hard, we are sore, stairs suck! But alas we are surviving and walking, exercise, more walking. Last year I lost 30...this year I want to hit 50 or 60...Just being under 200 will be the best experience of my life. I may never be 119 pounds(Before Pregnancy raped my body) like I was in 2007 but you know what I am alright with that. Hell, I cannot even call myself fat..too many people in my life give me the WTF you are not fat. Plus shopping is my addiction and I love my husband for his hours at work to give me my life. I am working on my appreciation of him everyday <3
Finally also, we got snow. Jack Frost has been in frickin lala land this December. So I had to throw snow at David!
Well off to go to Bed....
I have recently figured out I do not want 4 kids ever. Let me explain. David originally wanted 4 kids. (Like his mom) Insane, right? I was happy with my 2 year old little Girl and 3 year old little Boy. One kid for each parent. They get as much attention as they want because Face it I am not the Duggards. 19 and counting I would probably have to be contained and put in the asylum. True Story. Anywho, my friend who moved in has a 2 year old boy. Seriously, we are going crazy from the word Train. So my life, 2 year old (Fawns kid) who is getting ready to potty train, picks on the kid I babysit, loves train, cries all the time, and oh yeah...we have agreed he needs help some days. 2 year old (Lorilye) who is a Princess she is spoiled more than most children, has a temper of the devil, you mess with her she will yell at you and punch you(poor boys) and likes her dollies. 3 year old (Ezeckial) is getting use to crying Colton usually screaming Shut Up Colton, cleaning up after Colton, Protecting his little sister, selfish at times(mine) and being my cuddle bunny. Then not to mention the one year old I babysit, but hes a baby so he does baby things. You know. So yeah, 4 kids usually most days...always 3. Its still amazing I can still take care of 4 kids, a Cockatiel, parakeets, 2 alaskan Malamute, Schnauzer/Pek./Shit-zu, Pug, clean the house, laundry, and workout! And Have a life...jesus yes I am amazing.
I will be first to tell you...Kids are amazing! But on those horrid day...ugh.....Celebrate Vacant Wombs! I hate people that always talk about how great they kids are...I imagine them having those bad days(they never talk about) and having a break down. Puts a smile on my face...we all know it happens. Its like one day or days they wake up as devil children and we wonder where our angels went. Been there ...try it with 3! Sex in the City says it Best...we love our children we just need to get away to stay sane.
Having a workout Partner is amazing! We are 15 days out of 30 today! I have seen so much improvement and hoping to move to 10lbs soon. It is hard, we are sore, stairs suck! But alas we are surviving and walking, exercise, more walking. Last year I lost 30...this year I want to hit 50 or 60...Just being under 200 will be the best experience of my life. I may never be 119 pounds(Before Pregnancy raped my body) like I was in 2007 but you know what I am alright with that. Hell, I cannot even call myself fat..too many people in my life give me the WTF you are not fat. Plus shopping is my addiction and I love my husband for his hours at work to give me my life. I am working on my appreciation of him everyday <3
Finally also, we got snow. Jack Frost has been in frickin lala land this December. So I had to throw snow at David!
Well off to go to Bed....
Monday, January 2, 2012
Bring it 2012
It is 2012. We are here Zombie Apocalypse, Right? Just being silly.
New Changes in my life.
First Change! We bought a house and we are closing this week! I am above and beyond excited. This is our house that we have bought together and our kids have already been there. They love it. It will be nice to be out of a trailer and not worrying about what the neighbors are dong or hearing them. 5 acres for our Alaskan Malamutes to run as far as they want.
Second Change! My best friend moved in with her son. It is exciting to have a roommate that can workout basically whenever and we get to enjoy soreness together. Ironically I have hooked her up with our best friend David. So the word David is scattered around our house. But its nice to have friends so close. We are so much alike and playing Just Dances all the time. We also know have a pug(her do) gosh Pugs are so ugly.
Third Change: I am destroying the things that prevent me from change. I am so lucky to have what I have. Sometimes I forget that and I shouldn't. There are times I get mad at my husband when I should not. I love him so much and he is my everything. With out him I would be lost. I am going to show him everyday that I appreciate him. He already comes home to a clean house and everything pretty much done. But I love the fact he tries to keep me so happy and when I am happy he is happy. We are perfect for each other. My kids are amazing and even on their bad days. They are my angels. This year I am becoming a vegetarian. My friend is going to do this with me. Just to say I did it for at least a year. I am losing the rest of my weight this year. Dedicated and with 5 acres and a 3/4 acre pond I have no excuse.
I am learning to appreciate my family, friends and distance Family more and more. I kinda distance myself when it comes to my immediate family. I love them but I feel like we are on two different wave lengths. I want to make them a priority but when something happens I kinda just shrug off calling. This year that is changing I am going to push the issue so much better. I really am close to my parents and Grandparents it is just hard when they live an hour away, work, and travel so much. But that is changing for Ezeckial and Lorilye to know there family as well as I do.
Welcome 2012 I say Bring it. :)
New Changes in my life.
First Change! We bought a house and we are closing this week! I am above and beyond excited. This is our house that we have bought together and our kids have already been there. They love it. It will be nice to be out of a trailer and not worrying about what the neighbors are dong or hearing them. 5 acres for our Alaskan Malamutes to run as far as they want.
Second Change! My best friend moved in with her son. It is exciting to have a roommate that can workout basically whenever and we get to enjoy soreness together. Ironically I have hooked her up with our best friend David. So the word David is scattered around our house. But its nice to have friends so close. We are so much alike and playing Just Dances all the time. We also know have a pug(her do) gosh Pugs are so ugly.
Third Change: I am destroying the things that prevent me from change. I am so lucky to have what I have. Sometimes I forget that and I shouldn't. There are times I get mad at my husband when I should not. I love him so much and he is my everything. With out him I would be lost. I am going to show him everyday that I appreciate him. He already comes home to a clean house and everything pretty much done. But I love the fact he tries to keep me so happy and when I am happy he is happy. We are perfect for each other. My kids are amazing and even on their bad days. They are my angels. This year I am becoming a vegetarian. My friend is going to do this with me. Just to say I did it for at least a year. I am losing the rest of my weight this year. Dedicated and with 5 acres and a 3/4 acre pond I have no excuse.
I am learning to appreciate my family, friends and distance Family more and more. I kinda distance myself when it comes to my immediate family. I love them but I feel like we are on two different wave lengths. I want to make them a priority but when something happens I kinda just shrug off calling. This year that is changing I am going to push the issue so much better. I really am close to my parents and Grandparents it is just hard when they live an hour away, work, and travel so much. But that is changing for Ezeckial and Lorilye to know there family as well as I do.
Welcome 2012 I say Bring it. :)
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