Somewhere is better than nowhere

 It's been a long time since my first post. It's been hectic but here I am still pushing the exercise. I feel like a failure in the sense that I keep putting off exercise....The change is coming...the time is right. Time to kill the habits and form new ones. 

I recently got a 23andme kit. This will put everything in perception of everything else I need to do. They use DNA to test and give you ancestry/health results. Today is the day. I put this in writing and get started. 

 This week is the beginning week. 10 minutes on the elliptical. I've only had 2 probiotic drinks...can't get enough Karma :) No pop and yesterday no pop. Today is the day I believe in me. 

Running is a start

I think as I sit at a counter, doing my daily job. I'm not going to lie I actually love my job. Most people don't. I love my co-worker and my boss. I see these people over 40 hours a week and still get alone. I am an amazing people person which is crazy to think about. I use to be so very shy. Petrified about meeting new people. Now I know my products and sell them well. Only downfall with money is the people that don't pay it back. Which results in millions of phone calls a week.

But anyway. I am about to hit one of my goals. On Monday, I ran for 14 minutes straight at 3.7 and incline at 1.7. Which is small yes. But it is huge for me to be getting to my halfway to thirty. I want to be able to run 3 miles in 30 min., right now I average at almost 2 in thirty min.

I've been thinking a lot about people that start up running. It is so difficult. Nobody tells you that when you first start your calves, thighs, and feet will hurt. Nobody tells you that sometimes you will get so bored from running, that you won't want to run. They also won't tell you in your last ten minutes you will count down and then feel so amazing when your done. Nobody also tells you that at first you gain weight from muscle.

I literally have been bored of every app that helps run. Every couch to 5k, zombie,5k they bore me to death. Zombie run catches my interest for the story line but you get to listen to,much 60 percent of the time.

animals and me!!

It's been a minute

Wow. It's been so long since I have posted anything. Which lets prevent this. My life is ever changing.

My husband and I are currently seperated. It's been hard, but it's been two years. I love him still very much, just our lives collided in a very bad way at one point.

My little man is turning 7 this year and my princess is turning 6. They are currently graduating from kindergarten and first grade. I couldn't be a happier mother.

I'm going to school full time for exercise concentration major and minor in dietitian. I'm in my sophomore year and find it amazing. I work 40 hours a week at a job I deserve. I get to dress up everyday and look gorgeous. Can't complain. I work with two amazing woman I consider my friends.

My life has also erupted with animals. Mailee Basil is going on 9 years old. She is a gorgeous Alaskan malamute from Stillwater, okalohoma. Mailee also went out and decided to be a whore, lol. She got pregnant by a blue heeler, and she had 4 male,puppies. We kept one and named him Link. He is gorgeous. We also saved a German Shepard Rottweiler. Her name is Zelda and she is a year old. We still also have Tiara she is 3 this year, she is a mini Schnauzer pomerian. I also have three cats. Smokey is still with us working on ten years. Finn a cat who followed me home about 6 years ago is still with us. He just recently had a tail surgery so he is a stumpy. We also drive two hours away just to adopt a 3 week old rescue kitten. We have spent so much time on the little one and miss Aurora is now 9 weeks old and hyper as ever. We also have 3 birds, two cockatiels, Mystic and Crowley, and a parrotlot named Sorin.

I'm trying to bring some light on to the struggles we all have when it comes to weight loss. My favorite one is working out for a month straight and no results. This sucks and motivation is lacking. I am 26 and not getting any younger. I am not taking it hard at all like one of my co workers. I actually enjoy being 26. Needless to say I've developed some not so nice m3dical conditions. I got My tubes burned out about 3 years ago. Which for me was liberating. I only wanted two kids and that's how it is staying. I also found out that all of the intense period pain I was having from,16 til now is caused by endrometris. Which my pain isn't as extreme as some others. Mines being bandaged by hormones.  My chest also in flames my cartilage between my sternum and sometimes makes me feel asthmatic or like there is an elephant on my chest. I've also started a regiment for my anxiety linked to my anger.

Now let me get one thing straight. I love my body and all its curves. Sometimes I have my days where I am ashamed but I do love it. I have finally got up to start running 13 min at 3.7. Which is an amazing start at 1.7 incline. I also have two gym memberships, one at planet fitness and one in my local area. I also have a treadmill at home to keep it up. I have today as of now started hydroxycut. To help this process up. I've already lost 40 pounds and this time I'm killing it

Sexy 3 miles

I finally caved and bought a treadmill. I tricking love it. I am still healing but I can get a good workout. I am only doing 1.5 to 3 miles a day. The burn is great. Plus the alone time with music is good therapy.

I am a Phoenix

So life has been a rush...lately I have been asking myself what do I want. I have hit that lovely fork in the road. The one that is so godforsaken painful and world shaking.

I am 24 and I have no idea what I want. I feel like a 2 year old in a horrible temper tantrum. One hand I get the world and the other hand I get to restart my life. Which honestly, desperatly feels right. People rarely get do overs.

I am in the mist of divorce with my husband. Who claims to have finally found himself and he can finally give me the love I deserve. How many second, third, fourths times can you forgive someone. That relationship was a lot of hard work and a lot of painful memories. Hence it has ended this way after 8 1/2 years. I want to believe he changed..but part of me doesn't want to be stuck in the whirlpool of pain over and over.

Secondly, I am in love with my best friend and always have been. He has always picked me up through the low points of my life. We have seen the best of times and the worst of each other. He doesn't try to change me or even pressure me into the norms. I am still changing and he isn't stifling that.He also gets along with my kids so well. They are the most important people in my life. Plus he is also into fitness and being healthy. Which is so important to me.

Can I give up a second chance to finally be happy for a past wrapped in hell? I don't know. I do know I am going to school for Exercise Science Concentration. Every Saturday 8-5 I spend in school, do my online classes and get ahead.

I recently got surgery. Tubal Ligation. I made the big decision to never have children again. All I need is my two angels. So I am slowly getting back into exercise. The stress on the muscle is a bit much and you are sore a little bit. So I started out last week. .. with 6 miles on the bike...I was sore let me tell you. So this Monday I thought lets do this again. Monday I did 6 miles in 30 minutes. Today I did Tuesday- 1 minute of 5 and then today 7 miles of 35 miles.

Life is insane at the moment and keeping up with it is so hard...but as always it will keep going. Restarting my life.

I just realized I havent blogged since November. Gosh, so much has happened that it is crazy. Where to start.

Beginning of December I kicked my husband out. Something happened that was big enough for me to take everything. (Not Cheating) I took the car and dropped him off with his parents. He use to hate me but now we are parenting great from distances. He is having God help him tremendously. We may never be together but we will always be great friends.

I am going to school full time to major in exercise Science. I go to school on Saturdays 8-5 and on Thursdays 730-9. I am trying to better myself for my kids to make them and myself proud.

Tomorrow I have decided to get myself sterile. The doctor listed to me all the questions because I am so young. 23 turning 24. The divorcing husband and finding a guy that wanted a baby. Well It aint gonna happen with me. Replacing kids if something happens...no. These two will be my only angel so 10 oclock tomorrow I will have no fallopian tubes they are burning them completely down.

In two weeks I will be recover and off to start my exercise regiment all over again.

Selling Myself Week 4/Day 3

Hi everyone,

Here is my mindset as of lately.

If you didn't know I am a mother of 2 beautiful Children. They are my life, they are my everything. Everything I do is for them without a doubt. I gave up the military and even working for them. I worked my entire pregnancy with my son. 9 months and I was still faster than most of the girls there. I gave up my job 3 months after my son was born because I just believed that my time with him was more important. Then it was decided I wanted another child to get it all over with. My baby Lorilye was born and I still did not have a job.

My husband and I did fine though. We owned a 1997 Skyline Trailer. 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms. It was beautiful. We redid everything in that house and we made it our home. This year we decided to buy a house. My paradise hands down. We own a 5 bedroom farm house (100+ years old) with a extra playroom, Kitchen, Bathroom and a beautiful dining room.We even have real radiators with amazing artwork on them The outside we own 5 acres, 3/4 acre pond and a apple orchard. It is beautiful.

I also own a shit ton of animals. 2 Alaskan Malamutes (Red and Black one), My little puppy (Pomeranian and Mini Schnauzer), 3 cats, and 1 Cockatiel and a Parakeet.

Last SUmmer I lost 30 pounds by myself. Riding 2 hours a day on a bike and walking 6 miles. Gosh it was hard work but it was so so so worth it. This year my excuses have staggered. I was stressed moving, preschool and just couldn't manage my schedule.

So I have for the past 2 months I have stuck to me. I am currently (of course) on week 4 Day 3 of Insanity. Gosh it hasn't been easy but hey! I stuck to it. I am a graduate of Slim in 6.

My priorities have gotten into check lately. I wanted to go into the military before I had kids, as stated earlier, I have always physically fit before I had kids. So I have seen the huge decline in the care of people health or lack of support system for others.

I applied for college today. I want a degree in Exercise Science, sure I could just apply for a quick Personal Training degree, but I really want to know everything. Everything. I am a sponge who wants to help. So many people can't lose weight because accountability falls to the wayside. Exercise partners are scarce or maybe even don't have the time.

I have done Supreme 90 I love it Cheap ($20) and it does the job. I have Jillian Videos, Bob Harper, Biggest Loser, 10 minute solution. I have been doing Insanity and 10-minute Trainer and honestly I am in love with them. The results the community is overwhelming. I am becoming a beachbody coach in February. But I am willing to help others and meet others with the same goal..because sometimes just a talk will make the click, that hey I can do this.

I want to meet anyone with the same goals. Questions. Motivation. Accountability. Insanity Questions. Beachbody Questions. Anything I am here to help.

So this my friends is a redo of a 23 year old who needs/wants change.

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Insanity Week4/Day1

Here I am! Week 4 Day 1. Double. Pure Cardio and Cardio Abs.

Sore is not even the word. My abs are screaming. Everywhere else is a cruel reminder of pain. Almost to recovery week.....it will be so much needed after this non-stop craziness.

This is so worth it. I am a SLim in 6 graduate and I am so so so so determined to kill Insanity. With this much intensity it is just one of those....yeah I did insanity. With a smug look on my face.

I still recommended it to anyone looking for a change. After the getting use to the horrid soreness, you actually see change.

Week 4

Week 4 :) Out of Three Weeks I have only missed 2 workouts. Which I am going to be Cruising and hurting this entire week. No Breaks at all. Which means here is the set-up for the week.

Week 4 : Pure Cardio and Cardio Abs
Cardio Power and Resistance
Plyometric Cardio Circuit
Cardio Recovery and My make-up day (Cardio Power and Resistance.
Pure Cardio and Cardio Abs
Plyometric Cardio Circuit
Rest Day Will Take
Week 5 is all Cardio Core. So the first day I will do my last Cardio Circuit. SO that entire week I will be rested. Thanksgiving is that week. So I get a lazy time for that. Then on top of that I stop the program a week before Christmas. Merry Christmas to me :)

I can see this week being mental failure. I will be sore everyday.Give it 110% and prevail.

Week 3, Day 2/3

Yesterday my friend tried Insanity with me. She was very determined and she agreed it is Intense.

Tuesday was Cardio Circuit. I pushed it. Gave it 110% percent and Dug Deeper. My calves by the end were screaming in pain. Muscle Failure was happening. By the end I was covered in sweat and then Had to go pick up my husband. Horrid and then go to work...Even at work I felt my knee start to lock. Thank god this morning my knee pain had disappeared. I was seriously worried about not being able to do Pure Cardio. Pure Cardio does take every inch of muscle work.

It was a double today. Pure Cardio and Cardio Abs. I was a little distracted but I got through it. Just took pacing and some effort. Don't get me wrong I was still tired, still covered in sweat. Then to follow up with Abs. Ooh and I ain't done. 12 miles on my bike. Distraction makes means I need to work harder. I have 9 days life til Core week.

Insanity Week 3 Fit Test

Insanity is all about Hard Work, Digging Deeper, and Determination. Want Results...do you best and 110% more. Fitness Test for Week 3. Switch Kicks:60 (+16) Power Jacks :54(+9) Power Knees: 88 (+18) Power Jumps:40 (+17) Globe Jumps: 12/48 (+4/16) Suicides: 19(+8) Push-up Jacks:21(+13) Low Planks:72 (+22)

Yeah you do see that right. 2 weeks of Hard work. 2 weeks!!! You see that is 2 weeks of being constantly sore and lying in bed thinking "geez, I dont think I can be in any more pain" My husband heat welcomed to soothe all the soreness. I may be bitching about soreness alot..but you know Nothing feels better than Skinny or healthy :)

Someday my abs, thighs, Shoulders, and every other sore spot may love me. These results are worth it. Counting this week there is 2 more weeks left of the basic workouts and then A whole recovery week then The scary second month :) I won't lie second month is still terrifying. So I have been working my butt off 110% everytime to get to almost muscle Failure. Heart Rate has been peaking at 150-170 when working out. I have been having so much support lately it is crazy.

Week 3 of Insanity

Week 3 of Insanity :)

So heres the pictures. They aren't pretty but they are what I am dealing with. The little changes are what count. After 3 weeks, I have to wear a belt or my pants fall down. I had bought a belt maybe a month a go and comfortably I can get it down to the fourth hole from the end. My shirts are getting looser.My scale and me aren't talking til I am over with Insanity. Its one of those things I want to be shocked over.

Pure Cardio and Insane abs were yesterday and whew I was sore this morning. Acceptance is how Sore I am. I need to feel sore to know I am actually achieving something. I woke up so sore this morning my husbands warmth soothed my body. Yeah, it is that bad.

This is the new me. Still me but just a recovering fatty and A gears addict. To be pre-pregnancy weight again.

Insanity W2/D5

Its Week 2 Day 5. It was umm...Power and Resistance. Or aka...jumping jumping and squats galore. Abs already hurt. Seriously Insanity is no joke. I feel my triceps as well. I already know I feel like 70% good tomorrow I will be in hell...which is bad. Tomorrow is Double day. Pure Cardio and Cardio Ab. Yeah, 45 minutes of Pure Cardio and 30 minutes of Cardio abs. will post tomorrow that routine.

I also rewarded myself because I know I will be finishing I ordered Turbo Fire. I have always wanted to do it and at the price of $44 I couldn't pass it up.

I need my old self back more than ever. On February 3rd I am turning 24. I need to get back to my cute/hot self and being healthy on top of it. I already am 3 belt hooks down and without the belt the pants fall down. November is the month to be serious. Just remember no matter how long it takes, no matter how many restarts at least you are doing something.


Winter for me is the perfect time to workout inside. Nothing better to do on a snowy day. Thanksgiving, Christmas. God I love this time and with a new house to decorate. I love it.

W2/D3 Insantiy

Here we are Week 2 Day 3. Cardio Circuit. I will tell you my glutes hurt, my shoulders hurt, my abs are screaming and oooh yeah I am starting to get a cold. Dear God, Shoot me now.

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Insanity not for the weak. If you can't deal with being sore....allll the time. Don't do it. If you cannot stay committed to a challenge. Don't do it. If you don't have 45 minutes a day...then Month two up to an hour. Don't do it.

If you have the desire to change, If you look in the mirror and hate yourself...do it and stick to it. Find people (like me) that will help you hit your goal. We all get lost with our jobs, life, kids, wife, and housekeeper that it is hard to concentrate on ourselves. Trust me I am home all day by myself with two kids. I love my alone time, my time to myself, but working out is who I am. The burn I love/hate it. It is hard in the beginning.

Fact takes 6 weeks for real results in the body. Takes burning 3,000 calories to burn 1 pound of fat. Starving yourself never works. It is very unhealthy. Slow loss is good weight reduction can prevent sagging skin.

Week 2 Insanity/ Pure Cardio

Pure Cardio. Already anyone knows I loath pure Cardio. This week is the worst....Double shift on Saturday with Pure Cardio. I ate a cup of cottage cheese and grabbed a Special K Protein Shake. Yum. I cannot pony up to any other protein shake they taste horrid.

Tonight I got lost in the show Lost. Tonight I glanced at the clock and it is 12:30 am. Gosh, I didn't want to workout. My body just didn't want to even want to move. My zebra clad bed was calling me. Plus the lack of sleep yesterday. I do have a workout Buddy and I knew I didn't want to tell him. "Hey I didn't work out last night" No...that is just disappointment. So I got up put my zebra shorts on and put a tank top on. Pure Cardio is tough. But change is tough. Insanity is not a walk in the park. It is a challenge that I am willingly challenging.

Insanity Week 2/Life

Tired. Sore. Life at Insanity's Mercy.

Week 1 is over. Moving on to Week 2. I have been soaking up the last moments of the warm weather up here in Ohio. I have been enjoying every day like it is my last.

Enjoyed having a huge barn Halloween Party with my best friends band. Everybody had a great time and it was in my barn. Meet some pretty cool people and was very drunk. Apparently Tequilla and Jager do that.

My kiddos are growing up way too much. Preschool is doing wonders on Zekens speech and his attitude. Lorilye is picking up everything that Zeke is and it is amazing.

More later but I am exhausted ugh...and my abs may fall out.

Day 5:Pure Cardio

Pure Cardio I have dreaded this day. It is the worst one in the first Month. Things only get tougher later when they throw in Abs afterward. This one requires hard work, sweat and maybe even some tears. Even Shaun T says "This shit is Bananas."

3 rounds of Jog Jumping Jacks Heisman 1-2-3 Butt Kicks High Knees Mummy Kicks

Suicide Drills Switch Kicks Wide Football Sprints Stance Jacks Pedal 8 Hooks and 4 Jump Rope Power Jacks Level 2 drills Frog Jumps Power Knees Mountain Climbers Ski Down Scissor Runs Suicide Jumps Push-Up Jacks

So this is 14 minutes straight of working out. This is non stop Cardio. This is the hardness of Insanity. It is intense It is not for the weak. Mental, Physical Failure is going to happen.

Day 4: Cardio Recovery

So today I was probably in the most pain I have been in for a while. Soreness is incredible. Laughing, Coughing, Sneezing. It is like hell. Went to bed a little sore and wham! Painful.

Cardio Recovery is exactly how it sounds. Slow and relaxing. Still at the same time intense and stretching out the muscles. Holds are probably the worst. Planks are excruciating. Neverless the soreness seems to subside by the end. Which is good. Much needed for tomorrow. Pure Cardio. Probably the hardest one in the first Month.

Only one real rest day in the whole series and that is on Sunday. That day comes as a relief in this series. If you do Insanity and decide to skip a workout. Never stick it on that day. You need rest. I actually like what one person did. They always kept track of their missed days. SO they would skip one and then continue the next day. But before cardio week they did all the workouts they missed a whole week of them. Cardio Week is the 4th week and it is much much much needed! Trust me. Month 2 is nothing less than rough.

Peace Out