Running is a start

I think as I sit at a counter, doing my daily job. I'm not going to lie I actually love my job. Most people don't. I love my co-worker and my boss. I see these people over 40 hours a week and still get alone. I am an amazing people person which is crazy to think about. I use to be so very shy. Petrified about meeting new people. Now I know my products and sell them well. Only downfall with money is the people that don't pay it back. Which results in millions of phone calls a week.

But anyway. I am about to hit one of my goals. On Monday, I ran for 14 minutes straight at 3.7 and incline at 1.7. Which is small yes. But it is huge for me to be getting to my halfway to thirty. I want to be able to run 3 miles in 30 min., right now I average at almost 2 in thirty min.

I've been thinking a lot about people that start up running. It is so difficult. Nobody tells you that when you first start your calves, thighs, and feet will hurt. Nobody tells you that sometimes you will get so bored from running, that you won't want to run. They also won't tell you in your last ten minutes you will count down and then feel so amazing when your done. Nobody also tells you that at first you gain weight from muscle.

I literally have been bored of every app that helps run. Every couch to 5k, zombie,5k they bore me to death. Zombie run catches my interest for the story line but you get to listen to,much 60 percent of the time.

animals and me!!

It's been a minute

Wow. It's been so long since I have posted anything. Which lets prevent this. My life is ever changing.

My husband and I are currently seperated. It's been hard, but it's been two years. I love him still very much, just our lives collided in a very bad way at one point.

My little man is turning 7 this year and my princess is turning 6. They are currently graduating from kindergarten and first grade. I couldn't be a happier mother.

I'm going to school full time for exercise concentration major and minor in dietitian. I'm in my sophomore year and find it amazing. I work 40 hours a week at a job I deserve. I get to dress up everyday and look gorgeous. Can't complain. I work with two amazing woman I consider my friends.

My life has also erupted with animals. Mailee Basil is going on 9 years old. She is a gorgeous Alaskan malamute from Stillwater, okalohoma. Mailee also went out and decided to be a whore, lol. She got pregnant by a blue heeler, and she had 4 male,puppies. We kept one and named him Link. He is gorgeous. We also saved a German Shepard Rottweiler. Her name is Zelda and she is a year old. We still also have Tiara she is 3 this year, she is a mini Schnauzer pomerian. I also have three cats. Smokey is still with us working on ten years. Finn a cat who followed me home about 6 years ago is still with us. He just recently had a tail surgery so he is a stumpy. We also drive two hours away just to adopt a 3 week old rescue kitten. We have spent so much time on the little one and miss Aurora is now 9 weeks old and hyper as ever. We also have 3 birds, two cockatiels, Mystic and Crowley, and a parrotlot named Sorin.

I'm trying to bring some light on to the struggles we all have when it comes to weight loss. My favorite one is working out for a month straight and no results. This sucks and motivation is lacking. I am 26 and not getting any younger. I am not taking it hard at all like one of my co workers. I actually enjoy being 26. Needless to say I've developed some not so nice m3dical conditions. I got My tubes burned out about 3 years ago. Which for me was liberating. I only wanted two kids and that's how it is staying. I also found out that all of the intense period pain I was having from,16 til now is caused by endrometris. Which my pain isn't as extreme as some others. Mines being bandaged by hormones.  My chest also in flames my cartilage between my sternum and sometimes makes me feel asthmatic or like there is an elephant on my chest. I've also started a regiment for my anxiety linked to my anger.

Now let me get one thing straight. I love my body and all its curves. Sometimes I have my days where I am ashamed but I do love it. I have finally got up to start running 13 min at 3.7. Which is an amazing start at 1.7 incline. I also have two gym memberships, one at planet fitness and one in my local area. I also have a treadmill at home to keep it up. I have today as of now started hydroxycut. To help this process up. I've already lost 40 pounds and this time I'm killing it