We GOT IT!

So it is OFFICIAL on Friday, David and I become proud owners of our new house.

This is the picture I took in the Truck when we were unloading our things. We are owners. Finally! Our trailer is being filled with Mexican Polka. Which fills the Trailer Park well...most of the days that was blared. Not my kinda thing but to each their own.

This trailer was the home that we found in November 2007. We ended up moving in April 2008. Which I was very pregnant with my son. This is the place my son and daughter came home to. The place they uttered their first words. Their first steps. All those teeth and accidents. Getting married. The memories that line that place our unbelievable. The many of miles of walks through Wauseon. The memories there with all my friends. The emotional days I went through. The many days with my kids and learning things. That chapter of my life comes to an end. My life as "Trailer Trash" comes to an end, the lack of privacy and city laws. 7 years so far with my love and we are getting the perfect dream house.

It took work. This journey was very hand in hand with God. The strength and Patience he put into this was amazing. I cannot wait to paint, and make it my own. To savor this new chapter of my life. To savor ever minute. David had to prove himself at work to be a Part-Owner, so I can be a stay at home mom with my children everyday. I may not always be a great mom, but I learn new things everyday. I hand over my doubt and enlighten myself. Blare some Blue October and Secondhand Serenade.

And good luck to me I have white carpet!

Life in Pictures

My sons all about the bugs :) They freak me out but he loves them

My favorite trail during Nightime.

Last time I walked on it ...Beautiful

Red Again...soon to be Blonde and Red :)

My little Angel :)

More Boredom :p

Chocolate Flowers, An Amazing Card and Glowing Purple Ps3 controller. Happy Anniversary love.

Working on our Best friends House :p Steph and James

Just a Vent...

So life. Life is crazy, insane, any word but my normal perfectness. So as it stands I am now like ignoring my family. Not my husband or kids. Even distancing myself from my friends. What we are going through isn't something that is "fun" subject. One of those please ignoring everything around me subjects. So as it goes buying a house is not as simple as one may think.

We have the perfect house. "Pending" It is a 5 bedroom country house w/full basement, 5 acres of pure fun, 3/4 acre pond w/a beautiful deck off it, a huge Country Red barn, a shed, and a car garage. Beautiful, Right. I am viewing it as more of a pain in the ass. At the moment. Sometime in November, David came up to me and said he found the perfect house. We went to view it and I(we) feel in love.

So the first Loan is called USDA. United States Department of Agriculture who gives loans, the no down payment kind. So let me explain this big pain in the ass loan. So this loan pretty much says anything wrong with the house, you will fix in order to get. Not to mention the always hard to get to loan officer, and her always forgetting things we need. Did not help. Thank Gosh we know the people we are buying the house from and we have an awesome Realtor. The stressers. Welcome to my life. Fixing a basement wall(because it seeped), Putting crawl space vents (into a crawl space that is barely big and a 100 year old wall) Smart Right! Thank God for windows! Getting rid of the small infestation of wood bugs. Oh and selling our house, plus all the resubmitting of paper work, that they needed new ones of all the old ones. 4 months of not being able to have answers. Oh yes after spending a grand. Even having to repaint the barns and then write a paper on why we cannot repainting the barns because its winter. Seriously. Even me writing a letter of why I want to live there.

To be denied after telling us everything looked good! Because the Barn Existed. The loan officers never seen this before. The agricultural department denied because of the existence of a barn. Btw The barn is in perfect condition. Sooo yeah. We went for the paying loan.

The paying loan should be easier right they have all the information they need right! No....instead my loan officer quit. So we got another idiot. Well that is fun right. But instead we gave up our trailer. We are homeless in a just word sense. We are living with his parents. Which is hard because we are so Independent. But its temporary. 3 adults, 3 kids, 2 cats, 4 birds, and 4 dogs. To add to the goats, Parents and brother in law. Thank God for 2 extra Big bedrooms. :) We are content! But we should be closing Friday. I won't hold my breathe because when everything is done they always seem to find more that they need.

At least we have a back up plan if it gets denied. We will get his brothers old house in Delta. Victorian 4 bedroom, 2 bathrooms, and a pretty big yard. So whichever we get will be up to the big players.

Happy Valentines

Happy 2 years of Marriage with my Hubby!We got married on this Glorious day. Yup the most sappiest day :)We will be together 7 years on Sept. 4th..Love still does exist.

Happy Valentines day to all ..or Singles Day if you must and all you soul sucking I hate Valentines day bloodsuckers.

Have a Great Day everyone :) I hope you remind those you love how much you love them today and everyday :)Life is way too Short :)

Lorilyes Birth

Everybody tells you with your second kid it will be easier. You won't gain as much weight. Blah Blah Blahh....Well I am throwing all that away. After Having an easy birth with Zeke I decided I wanted another child. I wanted them close. So my Husband and I decided to get pregnant again. Btw I wanted a girl like madly. I loved having my little boy around. We did everything together and Being a stay at home mom helped that. Zeke was an excellent newborn and baby. He slept all night and was an angel. So that November we broke it to the family we were pregnant again. There were mixed feelings but we lived on our own and had been doing a great job.

Lorilyes Due Date August 5th 2009. Yeah that close. Zekes birthday is July 16th. I was ecstatic. Once again only had some cravings for Ice Cream and flavored water. Hated Meat once again. I think Fish was the worst. Craved Shrimp everyday. We had an ultrasound at 4 months and as she dug in my side. We found out we were having a girl. She was using the placenta for a pillow :) I probably jumped up and down screaming the entire time after that. I was finally getting my little girl. Pregnant and having a demanding baby is hard, but thank god he was an angel. David, like I said give him a chance, was coming around and was so excited for the baby! The mood swings were horrid though I once got so angry at David because the hot dogs weren't unfrozen...Ooops. Anyway, As I got closer my belly was higher, got the stretch marks to prove it. I gained 40 pounds during her but it was so worth it. Btw very convince Heartburn equals Hair. Lorilye was born with tons of it!

The labor story, I was mainly paranoid about ripping again. I knew labor would be short. So this time we were going for induction again. This time twice that week they cancelled. Damn woman with natural labors. The next day got to the hospital at 3pm, I hadn't ate yet because I didn't want to throw up or anything. Then the same nurses were there that were there when Zeke was born. How awesome is that. But I got notified by Olga that my Dr. Didn't trust me to have the baby seeming as last time she missed it. So I ate some mashed potatoes. I thought if I am going to throw up something why not mashed potatoes. I waited for my doctors clinic hours to be up and it came around 6 oclock. Dr. was still getting all her stuff done. The nurse came in and was going to put my Iv in.

I hate needles. When I had Mastitis they gave up giving me an Iv because they kept blowing veins. The first Iv attempt wasn't a complete failure until they tried to flush it. It was burning so bad I was crying which then lead to my hyperventilating. Joy, Right. They said that has never happened again. My vein was on fire. They moved it to my wrist, after 5 minutes I looked down and I had a golf ball size fluid under my wrist. That really freaked my out. Then after hyperventilating some more they blew another vein. Did I mention I hate needles! Ugh. So glad wasn't in labor yet. I was in so much pain on one arm when they put it on my other arm I was fine didn't even feel it.

Then about 9 oclock hit around. They decided to pop my water. She turned on the lights but a pad under my butt and used a hook. Rush tons of fluid came out. Completely uncomfortable. My dr. this whole time was sitting in the room waiting for me to have lori. Just watching Animal planet. I love my doctor for sure. Then after an hour nothing had started. Nothing. Then they gave me a whiff of plitosin 3 drips and bam! I was in full force labor. I was having back labor. I could barely lean back let alone have them check me. My doctor was doing her best to check me while sitting. Leaning back was not an option. David was coaching me on so much, that I got annoyed. At one him telling me I was hot and sweating, and I was like stop touching me duh! I am having a baby! I finally caved in at 6 cm and got some nubain.

So that was stupid. So on top of my back killing me I was barfing mashed potatoes. The pain didn't stop it just made me tired and puking. David telling me not to fall asleep. Painful! Finally at about 11some I told David I felt the urge to push. The nurse came and checked me. Telling me I am fully dilated on one side but the other side had a little bit of dilating to do. I asked her what would happen if it didn't dilate all the way. It could become swelled and then we would have to wait longer. So the freaking out starts. All I could think about was I have to push. Have to. My doctor was like if you feel the need to push than do it. I talked about my cervix and she wasn't concerned.

I got one push the head was there. The Dr. told me to stop pushing so they could check the umbilical cord. Right as she says "oops" I feel a sheering pain. I had ripped. God, that was awful. My baby girl was born at 12:01 am. August 6th 8lbs 6 oz 21 inches. After she came out ready for the placenta instead came out a heart size blood clot, about gave me a heart attack. Then the placenta came out easily. My uterus had some issues shrinking back down to size. The best part was the room looked like a crime scene. Blood everywhere, they forgot the cloth under the bed. So everything was covered in blood and the foot prints back and forth into the room priceless. 5 stitches and then I got to hold my little Red baby with black long hair :) She was and is priceless. She did cough up alot of fluid because of having her water popped. But she did amazing.

Breastfeeding her was easy for 8 months until she learn to bit. She hated meat! Actually didn't start to eat big girl food until her 2nd thanksgiving. She learned to walk at 12 months after she got an absessed on her knee from an affected mosquito bite. She even had to get it drained. She was a co sleeper and slept great as a newborn. Zeke took to his sister so well! He would help as much as he could, he was 12 months old when she was Born.

I have already noticed the differences. No two babies develop the same. It is so true. Zeke was an stubborn and climbing over everything. He was in a bed at 12 months because he won't stop climbing out of his crib. He then was escaping over gates. He only learned word he wanted too. Lorilye talks up a storm, hates getting dirty and loves dresses. She is clumpsy but shes working on it. She is also so emotional. (Side not...She will even freak out if he shoes get dirty) She tries to keep up with her brother so much and she is so talkative! I think having two is very difficult at times. Would I change it...never....They are ever changing and so is this mommy.

She is a newborn in this picture.They let us out the next day. Yay, for healthy!

Ezeckials Birth

I got reminded of birth. So after being asked by many how mine were...I will start....in writing...my births.

The Story of Ezeckial...

I got pregnant sometime in November. It was my decision to get pregnant. As we joke I raped my David. I had dreaded pregnancy. When you read up on Pregnancy or surrounded by a sister in law that had a horrid pregnancy. Throwing up to the point of being hospitalized...Yeah it was not happening. Plus Labor...the stories I have heard are like alright why would you even want to get pregnant again. My aunt ripped through her anus...she has only had one kid..she is know 8.

I got lucky. I had not a single morning sickness moment. I worked at Dairy queen in the ice cream area. The smell of meat made me want to vomit. But I got joy working there, knew everyone and we had all starting working there at the same time when they had opened. In the later months I had such intense heartburn I thought I was going to die. I remember seeing the first Ultrasound. David and I crying at the pictures. We found out we were having a boy. I was so scared, a boy...a penis. I had no idea how to take care of a boy. I cried in a walmart for 30 minutes over having a boy. (Let me tell you know I cannot imagine not having a boy he is my lil' man) David tried to comfort me but It didn't work until the moment he was in my arms. But I am rushing, let me go back. I hate having an ultrasound with a full bladder and she had left bruises on my stomach from pushing so hard. Ehh...little pain. By the way I was 18 and let me tell you the many people that looked at my age and made comments made me very angry. The ultrasound lady had dropped comments how young I was to be a mother. All I could think was wow, glad I am not 16 and at least I have been with this man sick 2005. Btw, pregnancy goo I hate that part. The more pregnant you get the more you get. You'll understand if your pregnant. July 4th was my due date. Which ironically, was the same day as my doctors vacation started. I was determined to have her there. I was 12 days over due. Let me tell you I think besides peeing every time I coughed or got kicked and being as big as a house...14 days over due...never again. She had scheduled me for an induction Monday morning but we got postponed til Tuesday to come in....

Let's Rewind. ... During this time David was there but lost. He didn't tell anyone at church until I was almost 4 months pregnant. His Mother and Father thought we were too young and trying to get David's brother(since they already had a kid) to adopt my unborn son. Btw without talking to us...Yeah that was so not happening. Not to mention his Dad stopped talking to us all together. Thanks Guys. My mom started to cry because she was a young mom and didn't want us to have a wake-up call. David was in a world of unknown. I know it scared him. Hell it scared me. He became someone I didn't know. Of course, I was the one with an alien inside of me and having modern warfare in my uterus. He couldn't bond with something in my belly. He would watch the baby move in amazement. He wasn't ready for a family...I was. Don't hate him, he will prove himself later. He still got up in the middle of the night to go get me medicine, or when I was craving Grilled Cheese and Tomato soup for 4 weeks in a row he made them, gave me back rubs, foot rubs. He was amazing for me and half their for me. Btw during this I gained about 80 pounds. More to my adventure..later...But back to Tuesday..

I go into my hospital and previously had done all the paperwork. I was excited and scared so much. David held my hand and comforted me. The put the Iv in me...I loath needles. The nurse, who I call Olga(she looks like an olga) saw the old scars on my arm and proceeded to ask me how I was going to handle a baby. I then informed her that those are marks of who I was and I hadn't done it in a long time. She looked appalled...by my arm. But she hooked me up anyway with me almost bursting my vein. I laided in the bed and went wow this is really happening. I ate Cheese filled Breadsticks and then got my Cocktail of drugs. Apparently, an ulcer pill can start labor...yeah feel sorry for the pregnant person that got to figure that out. It had an ulcer pill and sleeping pills.I feel asleep in the hospital bed at probably midnight and David slept on the couch. I remember waking up at about 4am or so and being in this dull sharp pains. I woke David up, he was completely grumpy. Yeah thanks Jerk I was the one in pain. It was dull and then paged Olga and she informed me I was started Labor. What Did I want to do.....(well ain't that an amazing question) i told her I wanted to go in the jacuzzi tub..she told me I would be in labor for 12 or more hours and I should hold off(Bitch I want my Hot Tub) I said alright and then continued just watching Animal planet. Every Couple minutes being reminded of this tight little pain. I kept telling David...I cannot do this...probably 50 times. But it was just getting a little more intense. Olga and Laura came and checked how much I was dilated. Also, during this time David called my mom to say I was in labor but not to come til later..HAHA. If only I knew. It hit about 5:40 and I started to feel like I was going to poop. So I called the nurse and as a battle went back and forth if I actually had to poop. SHe checked me and went "Holy crap, you went from 2-10 in 15 minutes. (Yeah my vagina is that awesome) My brain just freaked out. I was like can I have an epidural, thinking this is going to be mind blowing painful, she then proceeded to tell me I'm too far.Bright Holy God light came on..A male doctor I didn't know walked in looking disorientated. Lauren(Nurse) and Olga propped my legs in the stir up. Lauren and David held on to my hand. They also told me I was barley squeezing. In 5 seconds and one push my baby boy was born. I didn't feel any ring of fire or anything. Went way to fast. They cut his umbilical cord and took him and cleaned him all up. Can't take the whole blood and such. Then I delivered the Placenta and wanted to Jack the nurse in the face that kept rubbing into my stomach.My real Doctor walked in as Zeke had his first cry. Her first baby she had ever missed. She got to stitch me up 5 stitches. Btw My stitches were too the left go figure..always thought they went down. I did have 2 shots of newbain (sp) when getting stitches and was talking gibberish. She gave me more after immediately wanting to take a shower. I wasn't tired at all. I got tired after all the medicine. I slept with my son for the first time and when I woke up we Breastfed together. I think the needles as the colostrum was coming out burned so bad but we were determined. He was a good latcher. He only left my bed to go with the nurses for checkupsDate: Wednesday, July 16, 2008 at 5:43 AM Weight: 8 lbs. 9 oz. Length: 21 inches I breastfed for 3 months until I lost my milk during my pregnancy. Also during the breastfeeding,I got mastitis. 102.4 fever and the milk duct was inflamed on my right side. Easy fix so hospital time to check that it was Preeclampsia. Then some very strong pills to kill the inflammation. I was also a co-sleeper until he started to roll at 4 months.We have spent every moment together naps together cleaning playing. I have never regretted having him, ever. The people that have doubted us We got apologizes from and my parents are so proud of us. Being a stay at home mom is one thing alot of people cannot be or choose to be. I love it. Somedays its not easy but he is just like me. I didn't miss a single thing!

David after not really connecting with Zeke for almost 6 months. He still took care of him changing diapers making bottles, he just wasn't into the role 100%. But he grew up and he became the amazing guy that I am so proud of. I know some Dad's fit the part right away but David needed time. I gave him that.He had to not think of a kid as a death sentence but as another change in life. I am so glad I did and will never blame him for it. Being a Parent is hard! To think I was scared of having a boy makes me laugh so hard, I cannot imagine not having a boy.

The next blog will have Lorilyes Birth..

Birth Death and Life

This week has been one of those. Exhilarating weeks from hell. My best friend got to endure the painful lost of someone that was like a grandpa to her. Trying to keep her to a point of bearable was hard.How unprepared we are for something so inevitable. I have lost my Ex-boyfriend, Great-Grandpa, and Great-Grandpa, I was very close to each of them. How unexpected their deaths were, they taught me so many values and morals. I may have lost them on earth, but I am sure the view from heaven is beautiful. Just reminds me how valuable are the ones we love, they could be gone the very next day. The funeral was on my birthday, joyous.

Then also on my birthday a baby was born to one of David's friends. Shows how life continues even when it seems it should stop for mourning. Life keeps going on and we get lost in it sometime. Get prepared for 9 months for a baby something joyous and death no warning and seconds. How ironic is life.

I celebrated life. Went to TGIF's and for the first time in the 4 times I went there I did not throw up. ALmost but didn't. Drank, Toasted Another year. Went to see The Woman In Black...yeah...the Beginning pretty good and then just went stupid at the end. I don't get bothered by scary movies or even jump. I guess that what happens when you watch IT when your 8.

Gosh I am so spacing. I am here, but completely not. I keep thinking about stuff that I would rather not. It has been really hard having one of my best friend move away. Devastating. I just want him to put his arms around me and tell me he is staying. I get change is inevitable it just hurts. Here we are buying a house, staying here, have a life. Staying here to watch our children grow up. In a sense, its comfortable, knowing we are safe. At the same time.....my mind is still set on joining a force. It's senseless to most. I have a family. I have two amazing kiddos and a lovely husband. My parents and grandpa is an hour away. I have heard the complaints of army life from both my brother (Captain in the Army) and my brother in law and practically half of my friends. But I love it, I have always flirted with the idea. I might as well be putting a gun to David's head every time I talk about it. My seconds are forensic or mental Psychology or Personal Trainer. I like the prospects of both. I just yearn to travel, to support our country, to work my butt off, and absorb myself into that life. Selfish I know. Maybe when I start school again this year I will change my mind.

I think the self-discipline you need for these things...the test of it all is by far me. I am currently a stay at home mom. I think all these things are driving me crazy...

Well then...Insomnia...

So.. as I was reading today and battling the latest insomnia attack...I was blow away by..a vagina Alarm Clock. Wow, the reasons I would give this to my friends. 1. the first words out of their mouth would be wtf! 2. Wtf 3. Wow, it has 31 settings. Yeah, this is no joke.They really wouldn't expect any less from me .I mean it must be made by a man obviously. What could be even better is seeing a plastic severed head with a vagina on the severed head...well...I mean that is one of those ah..Japan creepy things. Even creepier is who would buy this and then imagine going into someones bedroom and seeing a severed head vagina. The words...I am at the moment laughing so hard I can barley breathe.

In other news apparently if you deposit a big check in your bank account..they freeze your account. Apparently, in order to have money you must sell drugs. Me personally I would sell alcohol because I would be drunk. Like a Bartender just out of a car. I mean as appalling as Popcorn crack is..I will pass. Second thing I have learned this week is USDA loans just plain suck to get to the point we are at. That point that we see if we are approved in a couple days.This has just been a huge pain in the ass nightmare but when we walk into our house the first day. Well okay lets be honest after like a week its enjoyable. Because that entire first time in the house will be hauling your entire living stuff to the house. Countless sleepless nights, being sore, Pizza, and the question where the hell is .....? Then not to mention the next week of unpacking everything. Okay we'll we will enjoy it in like 3 weeks. Can't even invite anyone over to see it because it will look like a hoarders house. Seriously, just without out like a million gross things and where is that smell coming from.

You are the only exception, you are the only exception...Sorry Paramore is blowing my mind. Then my mind is like you so need blonde and Red hair...Yeah Yeah...Insomnia is like one of those things that is like wth am I doing up at 4am...how do I even manage to survive during the day. I don't know either. Specially, with working out, kids, and animals...Idk. With like 3 to 4 hours of sleep. I don't even know how people can over sleep. What is that? If I take sleeping pills I feel like I am drunk...and it is such a weird feeling. Honestly, they should put on the bottle Sensation of being Drunk. I could barley move but didn't sleep and was even kind of swaying.

In other news as playing Guitar Hero for Wii. There is an older song on it called Pour some Sugar on Me....While Drunk my friends and I took this song apart...I mean have you listened to it. Pour some sugar on me....I'm hot sticky Sweet...hmm I don't know about you..but ahh..sugar is extremely gritty and then if you get that shit on your bed, your never going to get rid of it. (It would be like being a Peep)10 weeks later, what the hell am I feeling, Sugar go figure. Then not to mention it says Sticky sweet so It is wet sugar which great you just ruined your sheets. .Hope to god your not diabetic, because then you are just fucked. Have you ever tried to get sugar out of your hair, no fun. I mean instead of Sugar. Make it like Maple Syrup..I mean really that is sugar. Pure sugar and who doesn't like Syrup...okay maybe diabetics. You know what is sexier than hearing "hey Honey, wanna get Mrs. Butters"

Know that you know what I think about.....oooohhhhh Cheeto......goes on in my brain...way to late. Also did I mention Hours of Guitar Hero/rock bank cause really wierd dreams. Naptime was me listening to second hand serenade and well playing guitar hero in my sleep...Yeah Idk...there was even leveling up....

Oh yeah in other news...my parents have had a Ps3 since the day it came out...I don't even have one but of course when I saw Final Fantasy 13-2 come out January 31st. I told David...alright I need that. So I am getting a Ps3 as my wow, you just worked your ass off to get this house. I only want Little Big Planet, Final Fantasy 13 and Final Fantasy 13-2. I have beat every final Fantasy up to this one and cannot help my addiction...Plus talk of releasing an updated Final Fantasy 7...hells yeah...If you don't know what Final Fantasy is...well you need to know it!

We are listening, but we are not blind...Sorry Snow Patrol. Needless to say..my blog of well nothing ness is to come to an end..4:29 a.m. ...Hello Insomnia..please sleep to some blaring music..well appreciated.