Exercise is a journey, not a destination

Aerobics: a series of strenuous exercises which help convert fats, sugars, and starches into aches, pains, and cramps. ~Author Unknown

Exercise is a dirty word. Every time I hear it, I wash my mouth out with chocolate. ~Author Unknown

What fits your busy schedule better, exercising one hour a day or being dead 24 hours a day

Exercise is a journey, not a destination

Our conversation: " Nuh huh Plenty of people have fun exercising" " Yes those are the people that are more fit then us and are past the stage of aches and pains. And why the hell is that hurting. God, why did you create fast feet, jump rope and anything with the world mountain in it"

This is like the conversation we have everyday. We have come to the point in ea active that it has became a sweaty painful exercise. Very painful. When you cry because your calves want to fall off not good. I am surprised I have not gave up. In fact, Okay I am not surprised I am utterly determined to lose the weight. Motivation comes from the inside. Other people can help you but really in your mind YOU have to be the one who wants to change. Or you will just give up.My motivation is wanting to fit in my single size pants. 8 or lower. I want this every single second of everyday. Hell, I am even considering giving up meat. I have to keep seafood, I love that too much. But the only thing I eat now is really chicken.I eat fruit religiosity. Apples have become a comfort food for me. I never really ate chocolate, it always made me feel sick.

Elliptical I pushed myself so hard. I thought I was going to get sick. My abs were in so much pain. 10 minutes into it I thought I was going to instead I pushed myself. Pushed myself so hard. I burned more calories yesterday and hit my goal. Heart rate steady at 176. Which that is the point you can barely talk and gasp for air. I got up to 181. My highest ever heart rate was 198. I got that by running. Its a task called out running. You lightly jog then get close to the person and sprint and beat them. This is phase one. Yesterday it was 180 fast feet, 65 skipping(jump rope) 55 mountain climbers, running and much more. It makes you definatley work it all. I think it was like 46% thighs or hells on Stephs calves.

Exercise is my journey in life. Just as much as motherhood, wife, and marriage. There is never a Destination just sections that are harder than others. I value my friendships, motherhood, being a wife, marriage, and exercise is my voyage. There will never be an absolute destination. Only sections, little breaks, but all in all in continues for a lifetime.I do not give up very easily on anything. Any one who know me, knows this. I get obsessed, involved entirely, emerge myself and all who I am in it. But I do not get hurt easily. Growing up with hard parents makes you stronger.Like I told David once can you defeat the great wall? I am losing inches and pounds. Isn't that the ultimate goal of all this effort. I love it. My workout pants have started to easily be falling off after a few stride jumps. I absolutely cannot wait to buy clothes and get ride of all of my clothes. Start over fresh.

Fresh a word I need. Fresh, energized, begging for forgiveness, starting over, and going back to the old me. The way nicer than I am now me. Gotta get control of my anger again. Actually exercising everyday has got me in a happier mood. A natural pick me up. I will admit there is a point when you see your life going downhill and you have to put the breaks on. I have done that. I was not happy. I was letting it affect my life. But I am actively changing it. As I told David" Hold on tight baby, this is going to be a crazy ride" Change is inevitable, you try to stop it, you will be destroyed. I am not changing anyone but myself. I can only change me. Nobody else. I have been at my frustration point with people. But I let forgiveness flood over me for them. I will not stay trapped. I am too much of a free spirit. Lingering is not one of my strong traits.

I figure lately being a full time mom, wife and exercising with my best friend has taken a majority of my time from me. My day is as of lately is waking up at 9:00a.m. to my son going mommy wake up. So then at 9:30 i make breakfast. Tons to choice from. Then we eat lunch at 1:00. Naptime is always 2:00 til well 4 or 5. I workout my first workout Ea active 2. 30-40 minutes of non stop sweat session. Then they wake up then David gets home and anywhere between 8-2am. I exercise again on the elliptical for 30 minutes. Then bedtime is 2:30-5:00a.m. I have insomnia so it is harder to sleep. No sleep for the wicked. Time for myself, hell I barley get a shower to myself. Somebody has to come in. Unless I take a shower at 2am. Lol quite sad. So my day oh...not to mention cleaning, taking care of the malamutes, birds,and dinner. I am a busy active person. And sometimes we add our dance routine into it. Committed, yes. I think I just like overworking myself. I am exhausted at night yet I push myself the hardest.

I am going back to church again. One of the hardest things for me to do. I disagree with about half the bible. My stance is I would rather stand up for what I believe in, and let God judge me at those Golden gates. I cannot have people trample over what other people do in their lives or what the believe in. It infuriates me to the point of no return. I quit church due to the hatred of the church. Here your suppose to be a Christian, but you act more on the devils working.I can only control me. Human beings are the definition of ignorant and I guess they want to be that way. My way is I believe in God, I believe Jesus died to forgive our sins. In a sense, back stabbed by his best friend. But the bible was written by man. Who says they did not change it. Yes it was written in Gods word. But it is kind of like telephone..it get skewed and things get added. Just my opinion but ONLY GOD can judge me. Fighting over it is an endless cycle. You just put your hands up and walk away.