Black Friday. Those words already express the optional day of stress. Last year while in Kentucky and we decided to do this day at 5a.m. and at this time wasn't really bad and really it was worth 5 seasons of house for $10 each. So this year we really braved it..Got a babysitter and we headed out at 12am. As we passed Target there was a line that extended past the front to the side and the back. By the way its easily in the 30's yeah well I wasn't standing in that line. We went into walmart and got some Christmas Presents for Lori. While in Walmart we got to hear about a stabbing at Toysrus and a fight at Best Buy. Seriously, this shows what humanity is coming too. I guess going to jail was worth that toy that you will not get anyway. We had a great deal on Zekes toys at Toysrus. So overall I met gracious people and long lines...heck we did not get home til about 4am. Spent a decent amount of money but tis Christmas season. :) Oh yes, the husband got me the new Spryo Skylanders even though I am banned from playing it until Christmas It has been fun trying to find all the character and all the extra worlds. But I cannot wait to play it!
Christmas Season..is always tough on me. The one question..."What does my husband want for Christmas?" When asked he tells me he already has everything he needs. My husband does not watch sports, does not play games unless forced too( he hates Just Dances), he already has all the tools he needs, and lastly all his guitar stuff and amps...So leaves me going what the hell. But with the new house coming into our possession in January, I think getting him a huge tool box will be the big here you go. Since I am the one who organizes most of the tools anyway. Or maybe another Wedding Band his other one got left in Mansfield at our friend, Williams Wedding :(
I have started to get over my little bit of depression I was feeling about my mistakes. Mistakes always happen and it just depends on the brilliant people in your life that remind you how amazing you really are :)Plus we can all sit and judge or look into the brighter side of life. I love..no adore the brighter side of my life. The dark side is like monsters reaching out to draw me into the cobwebs of the past. Not appeasing at all. We all have that side of us. Working out is my sedative for that side. The more I workout the happier I feel, without working out I feel like I am failing. So the little bit of selfish, painstaking paths I take make me happy. What can I say easily dealt. < I never wanted to play what was meant to screw me up> When given that option to start anew..it should always be taken regardless of the mistake. I have become as in the words of Pink Floyd Comfortably Numb.
This Thanksgiving reminded me how much I love my family. Most of my family lives in Nebraska. My uncle is North Carolina, Aunt is in Kansas, Grandma is in Akron, brothers in Put in bay and Tennessee. My closes family is in Michigan. Which is about an hour drive easily. My parents and my grandparents live there. But as always I will always be reminded no matter the distance we are always family. Which does not really bother me for my family to be that far away. I do not hate them, I just savor those moments together more. I have Davids family of course they are all pretty much around here or in Indiana. I want my kids to always feel like they can let go and no matter the distance we are always going to be there for them. Too many people take their kids for granted. I know how precious life is...I want to have no regrets...and Gosh I love my little Monsters <3
I keep seeing this world moving while I stumble. I can't pretend to be anyone else. My personality defines me to a T. I cannot pretend to be friends with anyone I cannot stand. I cannot help but express my opinion even when It hurts people. When I want something I get it because purely I want it. Its funny to me the people that pretend...then they wonder why they are so stressed. Trust me I have enough problems to hurt somebody's brain and I wouldn't change that. Not even for one mistake to be changed. The world must keep moving and nobody is perfect. To much time left but at the same time way too short. Even for all my downfalls, my selfishness and non-communication, I have always proved to be trustworthy and supportive for my friends,husband, and Kiddos. That is really all life is about. Thank You Monday...You remind me of me.
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