The Calm ...Blue October

I remember about easily 4-5 years ago sitting next to David in Ben's Black Scion listening to Blue October...Okay Blaring out of control Blue October at first I hated it. You could not even hear yourself think. Listening up to 3 hours of non-stop Blare, yes I should be use to this. My dad is the same way. This was a foreign musical band..I had never heard or at least I thought I had never heard of them...
Calling You came on in that car and started my love for Blue October..Probably the most truest love song ever.

"I thought that the world had lost it's sway It's so hard sometimes Then I fell in love with you
Then came you And you took that away It's not so difficult The world is not so difficult...And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you So while I'm on this phone A hundred miles from home I'll take the words you gave me and send them back to you" Calling You_Blue October.

Then came Hate me which at that time extremely expressed every emotion I felt all the time.

"Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you" Hate Me_Blue October.

I think this band has expressed every raw emotion I have ever felt. Listening to Blue October calms my nerves and lets me think. Most of the time I just get frustrated trying to sort through the mess inside my brain. It is hard balancing so much and still come up disastrously perfect.

"I'm glad to say that we've met But I'm sad to say that the circumstances weren't On our side" What If we Could

"My words they don't come out right But I'll try to say I'm happy for you I think I'm going to take that drive I want to give you something I've been wanting to give to you for years My heart" Congratulations

A great song to all of my mistakes that pain me:
"It's the guilt of what reality has given me Making sense of all mistakes and my stupidity And when you're sick you seem to think You've failed eternally And that the people you let in are only crumbling When you're sick of faking life in this recovery When my decision paved the road That lies in front of me So to my friends that even call but I don't call back I want you deep inside my heart upon a hill It seems to hide sometimes and run away and wonder I'm really sick of saying sorry but I will" Overweight

"Its proof to show that I bleed for this And I'd cut myself the shame To get to know this masochist
Who has stolen my first name" Pulled my wire through my cheek

"I'm reaching farther than I ever have before Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore
I may be some sort of crazy We may be some sort of crazy But I swear on everything I have and more"
Sound of Pulling Heaven down

Easily David and I song. We have this one engraved on our very souls.
"I close my eyes and I smile Knowing that everything is alrightI knew it from the start So my arms are open wide Your head is on my stomach And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep So here we are
On this 18th floor balcony, yeah" 18th floor balcony

"It's all about esteem It's all about dreams It's all about making the best out of everything
You'll know when you're fine Cause you'll talk like a mine" Say It

The past of this year is cryptic
"And I could only dream of you and sleep, But I never see sunlight again, I can try to be with you, but some how I'll end up just losing a friend, And I can only reach for you Relate to you,
I'm losing my friend..."My never

At one point I was an anger at everyone in my life. ...so much hurt me and effected me...I was anger at god, I was disappointed with everyone. ... Explains a lot...
"Stop staring, you're the reason I feel so unhappy all the time, look I've given you everything I know how Your standing on the top of my shoe Your keeping me from gaining ground Look I'm sorry if you feel like I let you down.I should be loved by you, That I know is true I can't breathe when you're around! No, I should be held at night That I know is right I can't breathe when you're around!
You're too scared, scared of all of it I get that feeling I'm talking to the wall" Should be Loved

"Yeah I'm scared of death And I'm scared of living I gave up on the past cause it's unforgiving I misplaced my trust" Picking up the Pieces

This song is just plain a motivation and one very close to me
"You have to hold your head up high and Watch all the negative go by Don't you ever be ashamed to cry You go ahead Cuz life's like a jump rope I want to tell you that everything will be okay
That everything will eventually turn itself to gold Keep pushin through it all Don't follow, lead the way Don't lose yourself or your hope" Jump Rope

So much these lyrics bring me to that emotional plateau...
"I've been to both knees Raise my hands up to the skies, forgive me Is something out there far beyond the clouds? I'm asking help me It's time to wake up, time to make up Time to shake these memories It's time to leave the past in the past And lace up a new set of shoestrings" Blue Skies

"Describe the pain That choked your reality It's all in your mind he said You have to go graceful dancing" Graceful Dancing

"While I can't be anything but who I am" The feel again

I love this song..Period
"We both know who we are And I'm not changing a thing,
I've never changed before If lovin' me is work, I'm not a job to take I think we're headin' for the crazy-making heartbreak I'm wonderin' why I'm sittin' here, alone again Why you always crush me,
Why it's never easy Easy, easy, easy, it's not easy"The money Tree

"Why do I only feel the chills when I'm with you? I only hear your words that you say are true But you keep thinking it over, thinking it over, You can catch me if you wanted to, oh" The Chills

"Did he really get to take you home? I'm surprised that you chose him.

"I don't wanna give you my heart If you're not completing it I'm blown away at how your family
Your friends just accept it though No one's ever told you "no" Can't expect you to know how to love
When it was somethin' you were never taught" The Honesty

I really love them..I can honestly say I do not hate a single song they have wrote..time to drift back into the musical lyrics